"Truth or Dare? You won't play it. It's too boring." Fang Zhiqiang refused. They had played this kind of thing a lot in college. At that time, there were so many people laughing and joking, and it was so lively. But at that time, their experiences were all It's still like a blank piece of paper. I don't know that life can be so complicated, and that a person's heart can hide so many past events that cannot be told to anyone. Now it's just the two of them in the dark. How is this different from an interrogation? Especially when he is facing Li Xiaoxiao, can he tell Li Xiaoxiao everything in his heart? Obviously impossible.
"If you are sleepy, take a nap and I will leave when the call comes." Fang Zhiqiang said.
“It’s not truth or dare, hey, it’s just a casual chat, we can talk about anything. The main reason is that I can’t sleep in the dark and I don’t dare to sleep, so we might as well chat to pass the time.”< br />
"Hey, how do you usually sleep? Do you just leave the lights on all night? It's also dark, so just pretend that the lights are turned off, so there's nothing to be afraid of. "Fang Zhiqiang coaxed her and said.
Unexpectedly, Li Xiaoxiao gave him a completely unexpected answer: "I just leave the light on, all night long, and then wear a blindfold. I'm usually like this, you see." As she spoke, she actually took out the eye mask from the pillow and shook it.
"I'm dizzy. Isn't it still a black eye? Is it any different from turning off the lights?" Fang Zhiqiang said speechlessly, "Why are you so timid?"
Li Xiaoxiao pouted and said helplessly: "I don't want to either, but when I was young, my parents were very busy. Sometimes they often had to work overtime until late at night on projects, or often go on business trips. In short, Most of the time, I was at home with the nanny. The nanny also grinded her teeth. Several times when I turned off the light, I was awakened by the sound of her teeth grinding. In the dark, I thought it was one of those monsters in fairy tales that eats children. I was so scared that I kept crying. Later, I never turned off the light when I went to sleep."
Li Xiaoxiao felt a little embarrassed when she said it: "In addition, I was sent out to study very early, and I was always by myself. Even more afraid to turn off the lights and sleep."
Fang Zhiqiang couldn't help but laugh, the monster that eats children must have such a rich imagination. But after laughing, I felt a little sad. Li Xiaoxiao's words actually revealed loneliness. After all, such a young child must be very scared and in need of protection without his family by his side. It’s no wonder that Li Xiaoxiao has such a temperament and is so dependent on him and Wang Xia. It’s because her heart has been growing since childhood. He is too lacking and in need of affection, but has never been satisfied.
"This story tells us a profound truth: fairy tales are all lies." Fang Zhi emphasized talking about Li Xiaoxiao, "There are no monsters that eat children." As he said, he also He bared his teeth and made a face that frightened Li Xiaoxiao into screaming again, and then he laughed and said: "Besides, even ifYes, you are no longer a child, you are an adult, and the monsters have long been unable to bite you. "
"Ah! Qiangzi, you are so bad! "The frightened Li Xiaoxiao reacted, hit Fang Zhiqiang angrily, and then said: "Habits have been formed, and girls are timid and are afraid of the dark. In fact, I am also curious about why men and women are so different, and why men are not afraid of the dark. "
"That's because they won't tell you. Fang Zhiqiang started to make nonsense, refreshing Li Xiaoxiao's three views: "Men can also be timid and scared, but everyone knows that this is a very embarrassing thing, so it's just because of face that we can't show it; besides, at this time We two, if you said I was more scared than you and screamed louder than you, then I wouldn't scare you to death. "
"Really? Li Xiaoxiao's eyes widened when he heard this: "Qiangzi, are you also afraid of the dark?" I thought you were omnipotent and wouldn't be afraid of anything. "
"How is it possible? You see, I don't even wear my underwear outside. I'm not a superman, so I don't have such great abilities. "Fang Zhiqiang made a joke and did not answer Li Xiaoxiao's question directly.
In fact, what he could not tell Li Xiaoxiao was that he was indeed afraid of the dark, but not this kind of blackout or darkness without light. , what he is afraid of is actually the darkness in life where he cannot see hope and does not know where the future is. And in his short life of more than 20 years, especially in the few years after coming to Shanghai, he has been worried again and again. When San encountered such a dark situation, he was actually scared in his heart and didn't know what to do. He even seriously doubted that he couldn't hold on any longer. In the end, it was Ya who supported him. Xin's company is the help of many people.
Indeed, in those dark moments, Yaxin is always by his side, silently accompanying him, listening to his words, and guiding him until he takes one step Step by step out of the dark trough of life.
However, the last period, the darkest experience, was given by Yaxin. Because of Yaxin’s decisive departure, he once thought that his heart would be forever. There was a vacancy, and it disappeared with Yaxin.
I don’t know what time it is at this moment, Yaxin’s side on the other side of the ocean, what she is doing, and whether there is anything I thought about myself...
"Qiangzi, what are you thinking about? "Li Xiaoxiao waved at him.
"No, I didn't think about anything. "Fang Zhiqiang came back to his senses and realized that he was still thinking about Yaxin. But when he was next to Xiaoxiao, he thought of Yaxin. Even though he had nothing to do with Xiaoxiao, he still felt that it was important for the two of them. It’s all a kind of betrayal.
But Li Xiaoxiao seemed to have seen through him: “You make me feel a little sad, but you are reluctant to say it. Who are youWhat comes to mind? She asked unwillingly and stubbornly: "Are you thinking of Sister Yaxin?" "
" "Do you still think about her and still love her?" "
" "Don't talk about this topic, okay?" "Fang Zhiqiang said with some annoyance. He really didn't want to discuss Wang Yaxin with Li Xiaoxiao.
This hotel is also true. Even the backup power supply has not been repaired until now.
Li Xiaoxiao's eyes dimmed obviously. She knew that she had guessed correctly. Facing Fang Zhiqiang's attitude, she could only remain silent. After a long time, she said in a low voice: "Qiangzi, if you change it to I will never be willing to accept others. But if it's Sister Yaxin... why don't you go find her and chase her back? "
This question has been buried in her heart for a long time. Today, she takes this opportunity to ask it no matter what.
"What if I get it back? Those problems no longer exist? "Fang Zhiqiang said subconsciously. Xiaoyu's hostility towards him, his father's firm opposition, and Yaxin's heartbreak constituted his most painful memory. The reality is that both he and Yaxin have things that they cannot let go of, and In the adult world, there is too much besides love... Although he himself doesn't know if this is an excuse for him to anesthetize himself and escape, but he knows that he has no way to convince his father, and there is no way to give up on the true nature of his father. to sever ties.