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"What?" Jacqueline was very surprised and confused. Li Xiaoxiao said: "My fault was that I was irresponsible to myself, my fault was that I was escaping from the pain of unrequited love, and my fault was that it was an emotional threat to Qiangzi. Yes, I can pack it up Yes, Qiangzi himself admitted that he loved me very much at that time, just because he still had Sister Yaxin in his heart, and because he had a strong sense of inferiority regarding his origin, so he could not admit his feelings for me, even if I His suicide allowed him to face himself properly, but
However, it was still a threat and still a mistake."
Jacqueline listened quietly and said nothing at all.
Li Xiaoxiao asked: "Do you know what responsibility is? Do you know what true love is?"
Jaqueline said: "I...I don't know ." Li Xiaoxiao said: "Actually, I don't fully understand it now, because my cousin often says that I am still like a child in my thirties. Today I suddenly understood that the biggest difference between maturity and childishness is to Be responsible, be responsible for others and be responsible for yourself. Yes, love is a very selfish thing, that is, you have to be very selfish and have a very strong desire to hold the person you love in your hands, whether you use deception or blackmail, As long as you really love him
, you can do anything. This is love, but it is not responsible, and it is not really good to the person you love."
Jacqueline was fascinated by what she heard and couldn't help asking: "Why?" Li Xiaoxiao said: "Because loving him too tightly will cause him a lot of trouble. My suicide at that time was, if I really died at that time , then the strong man will definitely spend his whole life in self-blame, then I am harming him. I obviously love him very much, and I obviously want to pursue the person I love, but I am harming him. Therefore, we must be responsible. , be responsible for others, and also be responsible for yourself. To be responsible for others is not to cause trouble or harm to others. The same is true for yourself
. What if you don’t get it? You shouldn’t hurt yourself. People In fact, you must first learn to love yourself before you can love others, do you understand?"
Jacqueline repeated to herself: "People must first learn to love themselves, people must first learn to love themselves." Li Xiaoxiao said: "Actually, at that time, Qiangzi was also very naive in terms of relationships. Only sister Yaxin had seen through this a long time ago. You don't know, right? After sister Yaxin divorced Qiangzi for the first time, she has been letting him go. Qiangzi pursues me and has been thinking of ways to make Qiangzi recognize himself. Later, she took the initiative to disappear from Qiangzi's world in order to make Qiangzi focus only on me. It's not that she doesn't love Qiangzi, nor is Qiangzi I don’t love her just because she is responsible for her own feelings
, and also for the feelings of two naive people like us.Responsible. Later facts also proved that even without Sister Yaxin, Qiangzi still did not dare to face his own origin and his feelings for me. This was his naivety. "
Jacqueline said: "I seem to really understand. "Li Xiaoxiao smiled and said: "Whether you understand or not is not the final say. Now you can probably understand that among the three of us, Sister Yaxin is the most worthy of love. Later I understood, so I took the initiative to withdraw from the wedding with Qiangzi, and Qiangzi also firmly chose Sister Yaxin. Having said that, this seems to be a reincarnation. People really need to experience hurt before they can grow. Sister Yaxin also met a scumbag and had a son with the scumbag. She
I didn’t understand these principles from the beginning. "
"Xiaoxiao, I..." jaqueline said hesitantly.
There were two voices in her heart, and one voice said: Since you understand this now, why do you Unlike Sister Yaxin who gave the hadron to you, give Brother Yuhang to me.
Another voice said: I understand, I have been feeling guilty since I deceived Brother Yuhang. I have always felt that I am not worthy of his love. I am sorry for myself. I should announce this secret.
Li Xiaoxiao seemed to have read through her thoughts and said: "Do you have an idea? Do you want me to hand over Brother Yuhang to you? "
"I...I didn't. "Jacqueline's face turned red. Li Xiaoxiao smiled and said: "I said, love is very selfish, and there is nothing hard to admit. I was the same at that time. It's just that our situations are completely different. Qiangzi and I have a big gap in origin. It's not that he doesn't love me, but that he can't accept me as calmly as a normal relationship. But you are different from Brother Yuhang. There is no such gap between you. In the many years without me, he has never loved you. So, it’s not that I don’t want to choose
> give in, it’s that he didn’t choose you. "
Jacqueline pouted. Although she admitted that this was reasonable, she was still unconvinced. She had given a lot, but why couldn't she get the love of others? Li Xiaoxiao continued: "Also, although my feelings for Brother Yuhang are not as strong as my feelings for Qiangzi before, I need to pursue another relationship and start my life again. This is also responsible for myself. I was still hesitant before
and hadn’t seen it through yet, but now, I can clearly say that for my future, I will challenge you with 100% attitude and use 100% I worked hard to restore Brother Yuhang’s feelings for me. "
As she talked, she found that her thoughts were getting clearer and clearer. It was not only the mentality that was similar to the past, but also the situation. When Sister Yaxin divorced Qiangzi, it was because of Yaxin My sister has a son with another manson.
This moment is just like that moment.
In the past, although Sister Yaxin gave up her marriage to Qiangzi, she never gave up what she wanted in her heart. Now, she, Li Xiaoxiao, will not give up, because Qiangzi is worth it, Sister Yaxin is worth it, and Senior Brother Yuhang is worth it.
She, Li Xiaoxiao, is also worthy.
Jacqueline sighed quietly.
She found that she was defeated, completely defeated, not a defeat after a mutually advantageous contest, but being crushed in every aspect. Maybe Zhuo Yuhang loves the Li Xiaoxiao he first met in college, maybe Li Xiaoxiao has changed, maybe even Zhuo Yuhang's love is just to make up for his original regrets, maybe after he wakes up, he will only miss the girl in his memory
's innocence.
But those are not important anymore. What is important is that Zhuo Yuhang loves Li Xiaoxiao, and this relationship doomed her to failure from the beginning.
Jacqueline really wanted to confess her failure, but she still couldn't say it out loud. She didn't know whether it was because of face, dissatisfaction, or just because she couldn't let go.
“What’s wrong?” Li Xiaoxiao asked.
"Nothing." Jacqueline said.
Li Xiaoxiao pondered for a while and said, "Don't you want to admit to me what you have done? Although this is what I want to do now, it is really not necessary and should not be done." "Why?" Jacqueline was surprised. To be honest, she almost said it just now.