Li Xiaoxiao checked her phone. There was no news. She slowly put it down and continued, "You all think Qiangzi is not good enough for me. I have never thought that way. On the contrary, at the beginning, I would be very worried about whether I was not good enough." , not worthy of him. Isn’t it useless? Apart from money, it can’t help him much in his career. When we get together, we will also worry whether the happiness gained in this way will be short-lived. When we meet some sensitive people When I have problems, I will think wildly and I will be very tired. Of course, I know that it also makes Qiangzi very tired. Later, after Xiao Aili was born, my mood became even more unstable, and my family was worried about my postpartum depression. . I didn’t know until I checked myself that I had severe depression, but I didn’t dare to tell others, and I didn’t dare to tell Qiangzi. I was afraid that others would say that I was hypocritical and that I had princess disease.”
At this point, Li Xiaoxiao was like a child who had done something wrong, lowering his head and not daring to look at Liu Yan. After a pause, he continued: "Sister Yan, do you know, my parents will think that I am not considerate enough of Qiangzi. Qiangzi has done well enough, why do I still not understand and support him? My sister will also think that I I am too ignorant, willful, and will run away from home and disappear at every turn. Qiangzi will also feel tired, and I can feel it from the look in his eyes when he is with me. In this way, I will be more sensitive, more self-blame, and more I was so scared that a vicious cycle seemed to form during that period. Insomnia all night long resulted in more doubt and denial about myself. I really hope that someone like Noah can be with me at this time. Around him, Noah condensed their stories in a notebook and read a short paragraph to Ellie every day. In order to save Ellie's Alzheimer's disease, which cannot be cured by science, he stubbornly protected Ellie. But the movie is Movies and stories are stories, and fairy tales are fairy tales. In a real marriage, it is difficult for someone to give unconditionally and protect the other party's ignorance or even willfulness. If you have not experienced depression yourself, it is difficult to understand that feeling. .Noah will not appear in reality. I am particularly confused about whether I should tell Qiangzi and pull him to face it together, but I am afraid that he will not like me, will feel tired, and will think that I will be a hindrance. I know what I said Afterwards, Qiangzi will definitely promise to face it with me until he recovers. But how can I drag him down anymore? I have already caused so much trouble to Qiangzi and made him so hurt. These can only be faced by me. Yes, I don’t want to tell anyone else.”
“Sister Yan, I’m sorry for listening to me talk so much, but I feel much better after saying it. You don’t have to worry about me. Really, I have no problem now. ." After speaking, Li Xiaoxiao took Liu Yan's hand so that Liu Yan could feel the warmth of her hand. Liu Yan had been listening to Xiaoxiao quietly, tears streaming down her eyes silently. What is depression? Liu Yan has seen it in the news or on TV. But I don't seem to have really felt it. Lao Bi can't be depressed. He falls asleep every time he comes back. Although I sometimes feel unhappy, I usually don't stay overnight. Yes, I will vent it out on Lao Bi on the same day. butXiaoxiao, she is carrying it all alone, without an outlet to vent, and the accumulated emotions will indeed get out of control.
Liu Yan picked up a tissue to wipe her tears and said: "What's wrong with me today? Why have I become sentimental? To be honest, Xiaoxiao, sometimes I think you are quite hypocritical. You have done so much." Things are all about living in your own world. I actually didn’t agree with what you said at the beginning. I always think that marriage is marriage and love is love, which are two different things. But then I think about it, if you meet It's not the hadron that arrived, it's another person, just like the Noah in the movie you mentioned. It's probably another solution. Maybe you won't suffer from depression, and maybe you won't have any emotional problems. Such twists and turns."
Xiaoxiao also helped out and took out two tissues and handed them to Liu Yan. When the two of them were caught up in their emotions, Xiaochunzi interrupted them by peeing. I just heard Xiao Aili yelling to pee, and then saw Xiao Chunzi starting to pee, all of which ended up on a pile of toys. "Xiao Chunzi, oh", Liu Yan shouted and jumped over, picked up Xiao Chunzi and ran to the toilet. But nothing could be done, and by the time I got to the toilet, I had almost finished peeing. Liu Yan didn't know whether to laugh or cry at this time. She was busy talking to Xiaoxiao and forgot to urinate. She didn't drink much water today.
Little Ai Li sat on the floor mat with a blank look on her face and looked at Li Xiaoxiao. Xiaoxiao also hurried over and picked up Xiao Ai Li, but luckily she didn't get touched. Li Xiaoxiao also asked worriedly: "Ai Li, do you want to pee?"
Ai Li shook his head and said that he didn't want to pee. When I came out today, I was afraid of an accident on the road, so Xiao's mother specially put a diaper on little Ai Li. She rarely wears diapers on Ai Li at home, all for the sake of her skin and to avoid covering her.
Li Xiaoxiao pulled Xiao Ai Li to the sofa next to him, took out a kettle and prepared Xiao Ai Li to drink water. Little Aili held the kettle and obediently started drinking water on the sofa. Xiaoxiao came over and took out some tissues, ready to help Liu Yan clean up.
Liu Yan rushed over from the bathroom at this time and hurriedly stopped Xiaoxiao: "No, no, just leave the work to me, Xiaoxiao, don't get your hands dirty."
Xiaoxiao wanted to help, but Liu Yan blocked it with her hands, quickly piled the toys that were not wet aside, wrapped the wet toys together with the cushions, and threw them into the bathroom.
Li Xiaoxiao checked the time and planned to go to the hospital to check on Dr. Xu’s condition soon, while getting ready to leave. Liu Yan hurriedly persuaded her to stay, hoping that Xiao Aili could play with Xiao Chunzi for a while. Nowadays, the family is an only child with few brothers and sisters, so it is rare to have a playmate.
"Sister Yan, how about this? I want to get my hair done, and then after I finish cleaning up, I will come back to pick up Xiao Aili. Is this okay? It’s hard work for Sister Yan to take care of Xiao Aili. "Li Xiaoxiao mainly doesn't want to take her little Ai Li to the hospital, nor does she want to treat her little one so early.Taking Ai Li back home, it was rare for my mother to have a day off. After thinking about it, I found an interface and asked Liu Yan.
"No problem, Xiaoxiao, don't worry. You've been doing your hair for a long time, so don't worry about it. Go quickly." Liu Yan also wanted to express her gratitude for bringing Xiaochunzi a milk bottle, so she hurried Agree.
Li Xiaoxiao was naturally relieved that Liu Yan would take care of her, and she was not polite. After giving instructions to Xiao Aili, he quickly went out and got in the car. Li Xiaoxiao thought for a moment and decided to go to the hospital first and then find a place to cut her hair on the way back. I sent a message to Dr. Xu Chao and then drove to the hospital.