After Wang Yaxin's words came to light, Zhang Ling was finally stunned. She seemed to suddenly realize that her previous thoughts might be a bit extreme. The woman standing in front of her was also so gentle and kind. On the surface, she might seem a little extreme. She is hard to get close to, even almost aloof, but in fact, when you get in touch with her, you will find that she is actually a very kind-hearted woman. It is said that it is of no use anymore. All of this is just because of his current situation and has nothing to do with Wang Yaxin himself.

"Lingling, actually, I have never told you my past. When you listen to my past stories, you will find that you and I actually have such similar experiences. , even compared to you, I am not as lucky as you. Later you will find that in fact, you are not the only unfortunate person in this world. Whose life is not moving forward with a heavy burden?"

Wang Yaxin said very seriously, and Zhang Ling on the side was also listening carefully. Maybe when she was in front of her house before, she looked at the seal on her door. At that time, Zhang Ling really wasn't in much mood to listen. Wang Yaxin's words, but now, after seeing what Wang Yaxin did for herself sincerely, Zhang Ling realized that Wang Yaxin really wanted to help her get out of the predicament. Moreover, after listening to what Wang Yaxin just said, Zhang Ling realized She did have a strong curiosity about Wang Yaxin's past. After all, she had never heard Wang Yaxin mention it.

　“When I was young, I loved a man deeply. At that time, I thought that my whole world was him. I even felt that I could not continue to live without him. , of course, does not mean that I have no ability to continue to survive, but I feel that he is everything to me, and I simply cannot accept the pain of losing him."

"Later, after we planned After a series of marriage events, I got pregnant unexpectedly. You should be able to understand. This should be a sad thing for a woman, but I didn’t feel that way at the time. I felt that there was someone who loved me so much. A man, and I love him so much, I am willing to give birth to this child for him, and we will get married soon."

"But what I didn't expect was that he didn't agree to give birth to this child. I gave birth to the child. I don’t know why, but I still insisted on my idea. After all, it was a life. I didn’t want to let him disappear like this. Then, something happened that I couldn’t even imagine. ..."

At this point, Wang Yaxin suddenly paused. Although so many years have passed, and although he has had so many new experiences, speaking of it, he should have forgotten those things long ago. Everything is clean, but the scars of the past will always be scars, just like the marks engraved on the heart, foreverIt is far from being erased. Whenever I mention the past, I will think of how dark that time was and what inhuman torture I went through. Only then can I become who I am today and can persist in walking. Until now.

　"He disappeared suddenly, just like evaporating from the world. There was no news, no contact, and no trace of his whereabouts. Guess what I did next? Decision?" Wang Yaxin turned to look at Zhang Ling at this moment. Although she had tried to simplify her original experience, she still felt it vividly in her heart. In fact, Wang Yaxin did not want to talk about those heartbreaking details.

Zhang Ling frowned, looked at Wang Yaxin solemnly and shook her head. She could not guess that just what Wang Yaxin said made Zhang Ling feel that this was an extremely tragic thing. It was so sweet at first, but so tragic later on. Just imagine that Wang Yaxin was full of expectations for this relationship, but in the end she had to face such a result. What kind of mood would she feel at that time? ?

"I still insist on giving birth to the child. I feel that since I brought him life, I have the responsibility and obligation to let him experience everything he should experience, no matter what kind of grievances there are between adults. We should not let an innocent child pay for all this."

When Wang Yaxin said this, her tone was particularly firm. Until now, she has not regretted her decision. She felt even more pleased with this decision, especially seeing Xiaoyu who was so sensible now.

Zhang Ling couldn’t help but blushing as she listened. This time, it was not because of her own situation, but because of Wang Yaxin’s experience.

It is true that everyone has different experiences. Zhang Ling has never been exposed to Wang Yaxin’s experience. She has never had it herself, and she has never been exposed to anyone who has such an experience. Therefore, when Wang Yaxin finished speaking, she felt both novel and heartbroken. After all, such a thing would be a huge tragedy for any woman.

"I originally thought that I was strong enough at that time. Even if I was alone, I could successfully raise my children to adulthood. As long as I could watch my children grow up healthily, no matter how much I suffered, Grievance, everything doesn’t matter.”

“But later I discovered that what I was about to endure was completely different from what I imagined. When you raise a child, you can’t help but want to give him the best. Everything, naturally, requires improving the quality of life, so I need to work hard to make money. Of course, all this is not difficult for me to do. What makes it even more unbearable for me is that I have to bear the infamy. Others pointed at my spine and called me a morally corrupt woman, called me pregnant out of wedlock, called me shameless, etc... Now that I think about it, these are nothing, no.It's just the judgment made by those who don't understand themselves, and I don't need to take it to heart. But at the time, those words really caused great harm to me. I couldn't understand what I was doing. What's wrong? Why do I have to bear all this infamy? Why didn't anyone mention the person who deserved to be scolded? ”

“It doesn’t matter. Once you make one choice, you will naturally give up other choices. I brought this child into this world. No matter what difficulties I encounter, I can’t forget my original intention and never give up.” I chose to give up, but as the child gradually grew up, he began to have his own thoughts. He began to think about why he did not have a father. How do you think I should explain to him? "Wang Yaxin looked at Zhang Ling and asked.

However, Zhang Ling still shook her head with red eyes. At this time, she seemed to be staring at Wang Yaxin more seriously than ever before, as if I don’t want to miss every word Wang Yaxin says next.

“At first, I lied to him and said that my father was on a business trip and would need to work for a long time before he could come back, but such a lie was too much. How long can it last? In school, all the children have their own fathers, but he does not. How does he face the ridicule and teasing of other children? Later, I found him a fake father to make him feel that he was also a child with a father. Compared with other friends, he was no different. But I also knew at the time that this was just a start. After a while, everything will return to the way it was before. This lie cannot last a lifetime. ”

“Sure enough, even the time was shorter than I expected. Everything was over. With the end of it all, he got depression. A ten-year-old child got depression. , At that time, he was no longer as lively and cute as before, and he looked sad every day. The world was so big, but nothing seemed to be worthy of making him happy. You know what I felt in my heart at that time. Feelings? If I could bear all this for him, I would not hesitate. "

" Until now, you have seen my life. Do you think my life is good? "

Zhang Ling did not answer the last question in a hurry. She slowly lowered her head. After thinking for a long time, she looked up at Wang Yaxin again and said softly: "Yaxin, I'm sorry. I know these must be scars deep in your heart, and you must rarely mention them to others. In order to comfort me, it must be very painful for you to tell me these past events again, right? ”

Zhang Ling did not answer Wang Yaxin’s question, but what she said made Wang Yaxin feel a touch of warmth. Sometimes, the kind of tenderness that a woman can give is exactly what she said. Men can't do it, because women are naturally attentive species. They can always find the problem in a seemingly normal conversation.Find the root of the problem and find the key points, just like Zhang Ling at this moment.

A faint smile appeared on Wang Yaxin’s face, and then she said: “It’s already an old thing, and now that I mention it, it’s no longer as sad as it was at the beginning. After all, everyone It’s no longer what it was before, but after I said it, I felt a little more comfortable. Maybe, no matter what happens, it’s like this, little by little, slowly let go of it completely.”

"Well, Yaxin, thank you for telling me this. I never thought you would have such an unfortunate experience before. Now after listening to it, I even feel that compared to your experiences, I It’s not worth mentioning at all. Don’t worry, I will definitely be able to adjust my mentality and work hard to get out of this haze!”

Zhang Ling’s determination made Wang Yaxin nod with relief. As long as I can Helping Zhang Ling cheer up again, even if it means rubbing salt on her own scars, what does it matter? At least, this scar has other effects besides causing me heartache.