However, as Fang Zhiqiang just said, is what can be seen on the surface really the truth? What does the truth look like? At this moment, Liu Jiaying had no time to think. She only knew that Fang Zhiqiang weighed more in her heart at this moment.

Fang Zhiqiang was also staring directly at the woman in front of him at this time. In the past, she often gave him the impression of being tough, domineering, and even vicious. However, the more he came into contact with her, the more he came into contact with her. Fang Zhiqiang found that his previous impressions were getting weaker. It seemed that he no longer had such thoughts about her. He even had a little more sympathy for the toughness that this woman had pretended to be in the past. But when she peeled off these tough appearances, After that, she was actually a weak and loveless soul in her heart. However, for such a long time, she never got what she really wanted. She wanted someone who knew how to cherish her, someone who was willing to care about her, Someone who protects her, but obviously, she doesn't seem to have met such a person.

Moreover, looking at the way Liu Jiaying couldn’t help nodding just now, Fang Zhiqiang also knew that in fact, for her, other people’s opinions were not important at all, she just wanted to live her own life , I just want to make myself happy, but such a simple ideal is always difficult to achieve. This makes Fang Zhiqiang couldn't help but think of himself. When he faced feelings, he was so wavering and wanted to Listening to your inner voice, you can never find what you want.

It has been so long, and now I can finally know clearly what I want, but I find that there is no longer the same person around me, who was always clinging to me at that time. His own Li Xiaoxiao, as well as Wang Yaxin, who has always been mature, steady and rational, looking back now, they have disappeared into the vast sea of ​​people. If it weren't for Xiaoyu's incident this time, Fang Zhiqiang would not have known about the relationship between him and Wang Yaxin Is it possible for them to talk again? Moreover, even if it is because of Xiaoyu that the two people's lives intersect again, Fang Zhiqiang also knows in his heart that two people who can't get together, no matter how hard they try, no matter what God gives No matter how many opportunities they arranged, they still couldn't get together after all.

This made Fang Zhiqiang feel a little dazed. Life is a drama without rehearsal. No one knows what will happen before the next moment arrives. But this is also the charm of life.

If a person can foresee his own life and guess his own ending, then his or her life will have no meaning, just like a movie. Maybe after watching it for the first time When you watch it for the second time, you will feel novel and exciting. However, when you watch it for the second time, you will lose the original taste. When you watch it for the third or fourth time, you will feel that it is bland and you will have no feeling at all.

Just like the unknown life, from now onOnce born, it is destined to be a lonely and long journey. No one knows what kind of people they will meet in their lives, what kind of things they will experience, and what kind of ending they will have. Before the last moment arrives, Everyone's life is a mystery.

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During his stay in Zangyuan, Li Xiaoxiao actually established a strong relationship with the local Tuye people. After getting along with each other for a long time, Li Xiaoxiao Xiaoxiao felt more and more that they were full of truth, kindness and beauty, which were different from the people in the big city where she lived. Although the people in the big city looked more glamorous from the outside, and could even be described as "human-like and dog-like", in reality On the Internet, everyone will put on their own mask from the moment they open their eyes every morning. When facing anyone, people often show their hypocritical side, even the words they say , and the things he did, it seemed that not many of them were sincere.

However, the local Tuye people are just the opposite. They will show their true inner feelings on their faces. As long as they feel a little bit of displeasure, they will show it immediately, regardless of Whether it is the person closest to them or their enemy, they will not hide their true inner thoughts. It seems that to them, this is what they call being human and this is the life they should have.

Li Xiaoxiao once discussed this matter with the patriarch. At that time, the patriarch’s answer to Li Xiaoxiao was: "Actually, for our group of people, we have long been isolated from the outside world. I have seen The outside world is really terrible. If we are put outside, none of us can survive. Therefore, we can only maintain our original way of life here. Only in this way can we In this world, getting your own place to survive, and this is not a long-term solution, just like you accidentally broke into our territory. If more people discover our place in the future, then Maybe we can’t keep this last piece of pure land.”

After the clan leader’s conversation, Li Xiaoxiao discovered that among the entire Tuye clan, the clan leader was the most preoccupied. That person, and he is also the only one who has seen the outside world. On the surface, he seems to be just an ordinary clan leader. What he has to do every day is to lead his clan members to go hunting, and then Bring the prey back to feed your family and tribe.

After the patriarch told Li Xiaoxiao all this in sign language, Li Xiaoxiao couldn't help but become more curious about the patriarch. After that, she had a more in-depth communication with the patriarch. , Li Xiaoxiao discovered that the clan leader had actually struggled with it. If he chose to stay, his descendants would be the kind of indigenous people who seemed to know nothing. They would never see the outside world, let alone the outside world. You will know that there are more possibilities in life, which is obviously a loss for them.

But the clan leader thinks more about the future of the entire clan and the current security issues, including his wife.

At that time, if you choose to go out and integrate into today's society, it will obviously be a very new and exciting thing for the entire ethnic group. They will definitely be attracted by seeing things they have never seen before. They are excited about the things, but the patriarch is very clear. It is just a temporary excitement. When their lives return to normal, they will find that they are incompatible with this world. By then, they will not even be able to provide basic food and clothing. has been solved.

Of course, the patriarch’s understanding of the outside world is also very limited. After hearing his statement, Li Xiaoxiao immediately began to refute him: "Chief, although the outside world is very different from yours, There is a difference, but it is not as bad as you think. I believe that if you choose to go out, you will be able to get help from many people. They will provide you with the food and even all daily necessities you need, and you will be able to go smoothly. To survive."

But before Li Xiaoxiao finished speaking, the clan leader waved his hand and said: "I know this, but do you think that if it really turns out to be like that, it will be the same as The Walking Dead? What's the difference?"

The patriarch's words made Li Xiaoxiao stunned again. She once again realized that her understanding of the patriarch was only at a very shallow level.

　"Perhaps our current life is not the best, but each of us is of flesh and blood. As you can see, none of us will hide our emotions in our hearts. All Everything is shown on your face, don’t you think this is the most real thing?”

“Actually, speaking of the beginning, I also had my own selfish motives. At that time, my My wife was about to give birth, and I was shaken. I also wanted my child to be able to see the outside world from birth and become a person like the outside world. But then I thought about it. If that was really the case, my wife She will lose the feeling of being a mother. She will no longer be able to give her children the help they deserve, and she will not be able to feel their children's admiration and love for her. The children will start to develop knowledge of the outside world because they are exposed to things from the outside world and learn knowledge from the outside world. It doesn't matter to me that I resist or even hate his family of origin, because I know clearly that all I have done is to change my children. But for my wife, it is completely different. She works so hard. She gave birth to this child, but in the end she became an outsider, as if she had nothing to do with her. This is obviously a huge blow to a woman, and I don’t want my wife to bear that kind of blow.”

The patriarch’s statement completely shocked Li Xiaoxiao’s heart, becauseLi Xiaoxiao could feel on weekdays that the patriarch and his wife were not actually very affectionate, and even the wife seemed a bit submissive in front of the patriarch. But after listening to what the patriarch said at that time, Li Xiaoxiao finally I realized that the appearances I had seen had once again deceived myself, and once again allowed myself to miss the truth.

"Haha, maybe you are confused now, right? You think I am not very affectionate with my wife, right?" The patriarch at the time also noticed Li Xiaoxiao's mood, so he didn't wait. After Li Xiaoxiao spoke, the patriarch took the initiative to continue, "Actually, I did this on purpose. This is the tradition of our ethnic group. Men play a dominant role in life, while women are only responsible for taking care of their own men and children. , if I let my wife experience that kind of unique treatment, then the entire ethnic group will rush to imitate it. By then, it will not only be chaotic between the status relationship between men and women, but also the ethical issues of the entire ethnic group, and The most important thing about the change in lifestyle is that my wife will become the object of jealousy and even hatred of all women. They themselves do not get such good treatment, but only my wife is the only one. Naturally, they will not be balanced in their hearts. , and I don’t want to bring that kind of trouble to my wife.”

“So, have you told your wife about this?” Li Xiaoxiao was still confused, she felt It seems that this patriarch has many little secrets of his own, and it seems that he has never shared them with anyone. And such a clan leader should be very tired, right? Because no one can understand his inner difficulties and thoughts, he can only spend his time alone.

"No." The patriarch waved his hand very firmly at that time, and his move immediately made Li Xiaoxiao even more confused. Since he loves his wife so much in his heart, why doesn't he let her Do you know? Why hide it from your wife?

The patriarch continued: "A person is used to the original way of life, he will not think there is any problem, but if one day, when he sees a better way of life After that, he will have expectations and yearnings, but if such expectations are never met, then he will start to feel lost and even painful."

The patriarch's statement seemed to hit him directly. It shook Li Xiaoxiao's heart, causing her heart to tremble violently. She couldn't help but think of those days in her past. Wasn't it just like what the patriarch said?

It seems that in my relationship with Fang Zhiqiang, I have always only known to ask for what he can give, or even what he cannot give, and all this is just because I always cherish I am full of expectations, all kinds of expectations, I hope that I can have a happier life, I hope that my husband can give me sweet love and a happy life.

But at the beginning, IHave you ever thought about what you gave to the other person in that relationship?

Just like the patriarch, he knows everything in his heart, but he still loves his wife in his own way, strives to create the best living environment for his wife, and carefully takes care of everything she has. Feelings, but what about yourself? At that time, did I only know complaints and dissatisfaction every day? Interfering with the other person's life, affecting the other person's choices, challenging his patience and bottom line over and over again...

After thinking of this at the time, Li Xiaoxiao's eyes immediately became moist, but she realized, Now that she has lost the man who always cherished her, no one is willing to wipe away the tears flowing down for her. Therefore, she did not let the tears flow down in the end, but she couldn't stop it in her heart. Drops of blood.

She realized:

The most regretful thing in a person's life is not missing the person she loves the most, but missing the person who wants to be good to herself the most.

Perhaps for Li Xiaoxiao, she has been lucky all her life. She was born with a golden key. Even though her childhood living environment lacked a part of the love from her parents, she never cared for herself. Worried about life.

When I grew up, before I had a mature view on relationships, I met a man who cherished me. No matter how willful and reckless I was, he would never leave me. So, For a long time, he had been taking care of himself, but he still maintained his original appearance unchanged. He never thought that he might be the one who needed to change.

However, when I realized all this and wanted to travel far to find myself, it was already too late.