At 5:30 in the morning, Wang Yaxin finally found Zhang Ling on the street. At this moment, Zhang Ling was sitting on the side of the road. Wang Yaxin's rapid footsteps did not seem to attract her attention at all. At this moment, she still buried her head in her hands. Between his knees, it was as if everything happening around him had nothing to do with him.

After Wang Yaxin walked in, she discovered that there were a large number of beer cans and cigarette butts scattered on the ground.

In Wang Yaxin’s impression, Zhang Ling has always attached great importance to her own image, so she never smokes or drinks. She has told herself this before, and now Wang Yaxin sees At this scene, I couldn't help but feel extremely surprised. A woman who never smoked or drank turned into this. How much sadness and pain does it take?

"Lingling...why do you torture yourself like this?" Wang Yaxin approached, patted Zhang Ling on the shoulder, and comforted her softly.

Although Wang Yaxin was also very anxious at the moment, seeing Zhang Ling's scene, she could no longer care about anything else.

However, Zhang Ling did not react at all. She seemed to be asleep and could not hear what Wang Yaxin said at all. Wang Yaxin also pondered for a moment again, lowered her head and looked Looking at Zhang Ling, she continued softly: "It's okay, everything will pass. There is no need to deliberately keep things that are destined to leave. Whatever does not belong to you is not yours after all."

Finally, as Wang Yaxin's words came to light, Zhang Ling finally had a reaction. She slowly raised her head and glanced sideways at Wang Yaxin. From her eyes, Wang Yaxin saw a hint of indifference and indifference.

This made Wang Yaxin suddenly feel that her whole body was shaking uncontrollably. This look made Wang Yaxin feel a bit of fear. She had never seen such a look before. For her, At this moment, Zhang Ling was like an emotionless machine, or in other words, like a walking zombie. With just this look, Wang Yaxin could clearly feel all of this.

"Lingling... you... what's wrong with you?" Wang Yaxin subconsciously took a step back. The sense of distance and fear that Zhang Ling made Wang Yaxin feel at this moment, even Wang Yaxin herself I can't even tell what happened.

"It's nothing, I feel like I'm doing well now..." A smile finally appeared on Zhang Ling's face, but it looked so weird. On the street at 5:30 in the morning, There was no one or any passing vehicle. There were only two people on the street, Wang Yaxin and Zhang Ling. Listening to Zhang Ling's calm words, Wang Yaxin felt a chill on her back again.

At this moment, Zhang Ling slowly took out a cigarette again, lit it,She took a deep breath, then slowly exhaled a puff of smoke, and then coughed twice. It could be seen that she was not used to smoking now, but she had smoked nearly a pack this night.

When Wang Yaxin saw this, she wanted to stop Zhang Ling from continuing like this, but she felt that she did not have the qualifications or identity at all. What’s more, Zhang Ling has become like this now. No matter what I say, it should be useless, right?

At this time, after Zhang Ling coughed, she turned her head and glanced at Wang Yaxin. Through the swirling smoke in front of Zhang Ling, Wang Yaxin saw the tired and desperate face behind the smoke. She knew that if she hadn't been so desperate, Zhang Ling wouldn't be like this.

"Didn't you say you have something to do with me? What's wrong?" Zhang Ling looked at Wang Yaxin indifferently and said to Wang Yaxin with an absent-minded look.

Wang Yaxin was stunned when she heard this. She really wanted to tell everything Jack had done before. At least Zhang Ling knew Jack better than she did. Maybe she could help her out. idea, but now looking at Zhang Ling's appearance, Wang Yaxin knew that her idea seemed a bit fanciful.

After pondering for a while again, Wang Yaxin continued to speak: "Lingling, I am really sad to see you like this. If there is anything I can do to help you, you must tell me. I will do my best."

"Haha, I have nothing to help. I feel like I have never been as relaxed as I am now. You know, when you are completely desperate for someone, you will not be able to help. When you have any expectations and fantasies about him or her, your heart will be extremely relaxed. No matter what he does, it will be as if it has nothing to do with you. You will never be heartbroken or disappointed again. Then This feeling is really refreshing and relaxing."

Zhang Ling turned her head again, continued to take a puff of cigarette, looked at the street, and said to herself.

At this moment, Zhang Ling made Wang Yaxin feel a little normal. Wang Yaxin finally understood why she was so at a loss and even scared after seeing Zhang Ling tonight. In fact, this It was all because the gap between Zhang Ling and her front was too big. She looked completely different from what she looked like tonight.

But at this moment, after Zhang Ling said these words, Wang Yaxin felt that she seemed to be back to her former self again.

So, after Wang Yaxin pondered for a moment, she continued to say: "Lingling, there is nothing wrong with your thinking, but you can't hurt yourself like this. Since it was someone else's fault, why did you Are you going to use it to punish yourself? How stupid it is to do this!"

"Did you come to me tonight just to persuade me?" Zhang Ling asked againTurning his head, he glanced at Wang Yaxin, his eyes once again regained their emotionless and calm expression.

Wang Yaxin suddenly realized that she seemed to be a little impatient. At this moment, Zhang Ling's heart was the most vulnerable. The more she was like this, the more counterproductive it would be.

However, when Wang Yaxin realized all this, it was already too late.

"I have thought about it now. What you said yesterday was right. I should learn to let go. Otherwise, I will always be just a pet of his and will never be able to own mine. My own life, so thank you Yaxin, I already know what I should do."

Although there seemed to be no emotion in her eyes, Zhang Ling's words sounded still. It can be regarded as a normal person's thinking. After Wang Yaxin heard this, he immediately said: "Actually, Lingling, I want to tell you that everything behind this is not as simple as you think..."

"Then what else is there? Do you think I'm not miserable enough now? Do you want to tell me more truth that makes my life worse than death?" When Zhang Ling said this, she turned her eyes to the ground and looked at Pointing at the beer cans still rolling on the ground, he said to Wang Yaxin: "See? I want to get drunk, I want to lose consciousness, but this damn God won't even let me get drunk... Haha !”

Zhang Ling’s emotions seemed to be out of control again, and Wang Yaxin was becoming more and more anxious. She originally wanted to find a chance to tell all that, but now looking at Zhang Ling’s state , obviously it is difficult to find such an opportunity again.

"No, you are overthinking Lingling, it is not what you think..." Wang Yaxin hurriedly opened her mouth to explain, but she felt that the more she spoke at the moment, the harder it would be to explain things clearly.

Looking at Zhang Ling’s calm expression, Wang Yaxin continued: “Lingling, everyone will encounter ups and downs in their lives, and when we face ups and downs, we can choose to turn a blind eye, or we can Choosing to face all of this, no matter what kind of difficulties we encounter, we should actively find ways to solve them. If we choose to be decadent, we can only become a slave to the difficulties and it will never be possible to get out."
< br />　"You also think that the way I am now is too much, right? Haha, but I don't care anymore. No one cares about me anyway, so who cares what I look like now? I just want to be happy." Zhang Ling talked to herself, as if there was still no one around her at this moment, as if she directly ignored Wang Yaxin beside her.

Indeed, for Zhang Ling, she knew what she wanted and whose care she wanted most. Although Wang Yaxin was also very important to her before, after all, she was just a person. Just friends we meet occasionally,Compared with Jack, it is obviously not comparable. Therefore, even if Wang Yaxin is standing in front of her now, even if she cares about her, what she is struggling with now is not this at all, and she cannot feel Wang Yaxin's concern at all.

For Wang Yaxin at this moment, Zhang Ling is in such a state, let alone asking her to help her with advice, it seems that she can't listen to any persuasion he has now.

Therefore, Wang Yaxin swallowed all the words she was ready to say. Now she realizes that she really has no one to rely on. In this foreign country, once you encounter such a problem, you look up and see that there are no relatives or friends around you.

Wang Yaxin herself had thought about it before. When she just got the news that she could be discharged from the hospital, she was so happy. At that time, she felt that as long as she could still see her child alive, and she could Being able to continue to take care of them and watch every moment of their growth was already a very happy thing for me at that time.

But at that time, Wang Yaxin also knew that people’s desires are always endless. After getting this, they wanted to get that again, but she didn’t expect that all this would happen so quickly. .

Now that something like this has happened to Xiaoyu, Wang Yaxin’s inner thought is naturally that she hopes Xiaoyu can be safe and sound. No matter what she has to pay, she is willing to do so, as long as she can make Xiaoyu safe and sound. .

Even before, Wang Yaxin called Jack a few more times, hoping to have a good discussion with Jack. However, it is obvious that Jack will not answer Wang Yaxin's calls at all. For Jack, , he has told Wang Yaxin everything he wanted to say. As for what Wang Yaxin will do next, that is Wang Yaxin's own business. What he has to do now is to take an optimistic view of Xiaoyu before ensuring that his own interests will not be damaged. , I will never let this child go, because he is the only bargaining chip in his hand now, a bargaining chip used to threaten Wang Yaxin.

After Wang Yaxin saw Zhang Ling's state, she knew clearly that she could no longer do anything to help her. Originally, at this time, she should have chosen to leave without hesitation, but She did not leave like this in the end, but chose to stay. Although Zhang Ling was not drunk, her state after drinking was obviously completely different from usual. Looking at her current state, she was still in the street. Wang Yaxin was obviously worried. If something happened to Zhang Ling, it would not be something Wang Yaxin would like to see.

Sit down quietly, just like Zhang Ling, sitting on the cliff next to the road, turning her head and looking at Zhang Ling as she inhaled the smoke into her lungs, Wang YaxinI couldn't help but think of the time when Fang Zhiqiang still smoked.

At that time, he stood on the balcony at night more than once, looking at the night view of the pearl downstairs, smoking a cigarette in his mouth. At that moment, it seemed that everything in the world was in harmony with He had nothing to do with it. At that time, Wang Yaxin had also imagined what it would be like to smoke smoke into the lungs. What thoughts are going through your mind?

That sense of curiosity even made Wang Yaxin almost fall in love with smoking, but maybe it was for Xiaoyu’s health at that time, or maybe it was because of the sudden arrival of Xiao Xinsheng later. Wang Yaxin gave up the idea.

But now, watching Zhang Ling next to her smoking like this, Wang Yaxin once again had such an idea. Now she didn’t know anything about Xiaoyu at all, and she didn’t know anything about Xiaoyu. There is no way, maybe, smoking can make yourself feel better?

Thinking of this, Wang Yaxin couldn't help but touch Zhang Ling's arm, then looked at Zhang Ling's confused expression and said softly: "Can you... give me one?"