Seeing Lin Shan's appearance, Fang Zhiqiang also looked at her seriously, ready to listen to her tell her inner pain.

Lin Shan turned her head and looked at the sky. It was dusk now, and the moon appeared faintly. She stared at the moonlight. After a long time, she sighed and finally said: "Actually, When I met him, I was only eighteen years old. At that time, I only knew how to study and spent my time in the library. All the girls around me were in love, but I had no idea about this aspect. I didn’t have any interest at all, I just kept my head down and read.”

“Until later, I was reading in the library very late, and suddenly there was a power outage, and the surroundings became dark. At that time, I just looked at I was busy reading, not knowing if there was anyone else in the library. After the power outage, I raised my head and looked around, and suddenly I heard someone talking."

"That was a boy's voice, he The original words were 'Excuse me, do you have a candle?'"

"Maybe it was at a specific place and time like the library. It was really quiet at that time. There was no such thing in the huge library. Any sound, his voice was like a beam of light in the darkness at that time, making my heart tremble slightly. At that time, I didn't know what the feeling of love was, it was just a small touch."

"Later, when he lit the candle, I saw his face clearly. Under the reflection of the candlelight, his face looked very delicate and delicate, and his clear eyes were like a pool of water. Like pure lake water, it is pleasing to the eye."

"At that time, I felt an inexplicable sense of intimacy, as if this person was the perfect Prince Charming in my mind, but I didn't I was sure that it was the feeling of love, so I didn’t talk to him much and continued to read with my head buried in the book. But I found that at that time, I couldn’t read at all. Although I lowered my head, all I could think about was that. The boy’s clear eyes and warm face just now.”

As Lin Shan spoke, she couldn’t help but reveal a curve at the corner of her mouth. That smile looked as pure as when she was in school. , without the slightest utilitarianism.

Regarding her tone and expression at this moment, Fang Zhiqiang could feel that she was expressing her true feelings from the bottom of her heart.

So Fang Zhiqiang also listened very seriously, and her words couldn't help but remind Fang Zhiqiang of the time he had with Nie Qian when they were in college.

To be honest, their feelings in college were very pure, and their feelings for each other were not mixed with any purpose. Such feelings, after Fang Zhiqiang graduated, Never felt it again.

　“What happened next?”

Looking at LinWith the smile on Shan's face that hadn't faded for a long time, and the look of not speaking for a long time, Fang Zhiqiang suddenly asked.

Lin Shan suddenly turned her head and glanced at Fang Zhiqiang. Then the smile on her face suddenly turned into a self-deprecating smile. She took another sip of wine, stroked a strand of black hair on her chin, and looked a little Staring at the red wine glass in confusion, he said with a self-deprecating smile: "Later... we got married..."

These words made Fang Zhiqiang slightly stunned. Fang Zhiqiang just now had actually fallen into Lin In the beautiful relationship that Shan described, she did not expect that Lin Shan would suddenly jump to this stage. Lin Shan did not mention the sweet time and happy moments between the two of them in college at all.

But Fang Zhiqiang can also understand that now when he thinks back to the happy time in college, it always seems so precious and unique, and it is impossible to encounter it again in the future life.

Therefore, involving those precious memories will only make the current self feel endless sadness and melancholy, without any other effect.

So Lin Shan didn’t want to mention this, so Fang Zhiqiang didn’t ask any more questions and continued to listen to Lin Shan’s story quietly.

"At that time, my parents were actually opposed to our marriage. My family was a very traditional educational family. My parents had been teachers all their lives. They met the boy and said He doesn't look like the kind of honest person. I'm afraid he will do something bad to me in the future. At that time, I thought my parents were being unreasonable. How could a person's character be revealed through his appearance? More What's more, I have been with that boy for three or four years. What kind of person is he? Can my parents know better than me?"

Lin Shan couldn't help but burst into tears as she spoke. The light, under the illumination of the light, looks a bit charming.

“My parents and I argued about this matter for a long time. In the end, my parents still insisted on their opinion, saying that they have been teachers all their lives, and the character of a child can be seen at a glance. But I still couldn't understand their views, and in the end they had no choice but to compromise. They just told me repeatedly that if any problems arise, I must bear them firmly and not be decadent..."

Lin Shan's voice was choked and her gaze lowered. She looked at the bar table and took another sip of wine. The tears in her eyes became even more intense.

"Actually... my parents knew at that time that the boy would definitely hurt me in the end. They were very sure that we would have problems in the future... but I just didn't want to believe my parents. I was completely fascinated by that boy and insisted on getting married..."

"After getting married, he was actually pretty good at first.There was no difference before marriage, but as time went by, I gradually discovered that he was developing more and more in the direction my parents said. I gradually discovered that everything my parents said he might do, actually turned out to be the same. One comes true! "

"At that time, I started to feel a little panicked. I was really afraid that he was really what my parents said. I even mentioned this to him sideways. , expressing my inner worries, the purpose is to make him realize that he has changed and is different from before. "

"But I didn't expect that he would react particularly strongly to the point I raised, saying that I was making things up out of thin air, making false claims, and distrusting him, etc.! All the ugly words were said! "

Lin Shan yelled the last sentence a little hoarsely. Her body seemed to be suddenly filled with energy, and she straightened up suddenly. Her already red eyes were staring at Fang Zhiqiang. The flashing tears finally fell out uncontrollably.

Fang Zhiqiang was a little dazed. He didn't expect Lin Shan's sudden mood change to be so big. He was a little surprised for a moment. He raised his glass and talked to Lin Shan. After touching it, Fang Zhiqiang took a sip of wine.

"Later, just over a year after we got married, I became pregnant. When he learned the news, his first reaction was to frown, and then They just asked me if I could not have children first, saying that my career was unstable and that I didn’t want to have a stable family as soon as the child was born. Although my family’s conditions were not good, at that time, there was no problem in taking care of a child. Yes, even I told him to let my parents take care of the children, but he still disagreed. ”

“But I am a woman after all, a woman who wants to be a mother. My parents also particularly hope to have a grandson as soon as possible. When I discussed this matter with my parents, my parents’ attitude was very different. I am very firm that the child must be born and must not be aborted! "

"I discussed with him for a long time, and finally he compromised due to the very tough attitude of my parents. But after that, he became more and more irritable and treated me badly. I am becoming more and more impatient, and all the caring and tenderness I had before have disappeared. "

"After three or four months of pregnancy, my belly was getting bigger and bigger. The doctor told me not to have sex anymore, otherwise it would be dangerous to the baby, but he didn't consider this at all and still disobeyed every week. My wish, one to three times. ”

These words seemed to have been hidden in Lin Shan’s belly for many years. She had never been able to find a chance to talk. Today, it was as if her heart suddenly opened and she said all the words. .

“At first, I was very resistant to his approach, but I had no choice but to overcome his tough attitude and behavior. Every time after doing it, I could feel a burst of abdominal pain. That part Over time, the physical condition also becomes specialDon't worry, my psychology has become fragile and I need special care, but he is still indifferent and even often accuses me of why I am becoming more and more hypocritical. "

"Later one time, his actions were particularly rude. At that time, I felt a very painful stomach and screamed loudly, but he didn't care about my feelings at all. After he insisted on doing it, he just The man lay down and didn't even look at me. I believe that if he saw my painful expression at that time, he would definitely have uneasy conscience! "

"When he went to take a shower, I discovered that the whole sheet was covered with bright red blood stains. I rubbed my numb thighs and actually touched blood on my hand. I opened the quilt and took a look. Only then did I realize that I was bleeding profusely. ”

“I looked at my hands and a large amount of blood on the bed in fear, and called his name in a trembling voice. At first, he didn’t respond to me at all, and then he finally became impatient. There was a sound, and he frowned and walked out of the bathroom. When he saw a bed of blood, his first reaction was still frowning! ”

“I will never forget that the first thing he said at that time was: ‘What’s the matter with you? Aren’t they all pregnant? Why is the aunt here again? It also caused a lot of blood, so this set has to be thrown away again! '"

"I couldn't believe it, I couldn't believe those were the words he said. I looked at him with eyes full of hatred. I couldn't speak for a long time, but my breathing became increasingly difficult. Rapidly, his chest kept rising and falling, and finally he felt his vision suddenly go dark and he fainted completely. "

When Fang Zhiqiang heard this, he couldn't help clenching his fists and biting his teeth together. For such a man, Fang Zhiqiang wanted to chop him into pieces!< br />