Bi Luochun could not even maintain a basic life, so he had no choice but to pawn all his valuables, including mobile phones, brand-name watches, jewelry and even clothes. His assistant even sold him his car. This was all he had left. However, it was difficult to switch from extravagance to frugality. He could not get rid of his previous squandering habits. Moreover, alcoholism had become an addiction that he could not quit, and the money he pawned was quickly spent. So in the end, he was desperate. When he was drinking, he had a conflict with the security guard of the bar because he owed money, and was arrested at the police station. And at that time, the only one he could think of and the only one who could help him was Fang Zhiqiang. Over the years, he has never forgotten Fang Zhiqiang's number, and this has become his last life-saving straw.

Bi Luochun talked for a long time and finally calmed down and stopped crying.

The rain outside gradually became lighter. Fang Zhiqiang looked at the remaining water stains on the car window and listened to Bi Luochun's experience, feeling indescribably confused and confused. He did not expect that Bi Luochun would end up like this, using illegal means to obtain ill-gotten wealth, but in the end it would be all in vain. No matter how you get it, you will lose it in the end. It's like fate made a big joke. After making Bi Luochun climb to the top in a circle, he ruthlessly threw him back to the starting point - no, it was even more miserable than before. , they had nothing in the past, but they were clean and honest in their conduct and had a clear conscience. At that time, they had wine and brothers, and Bi Luochun had Liu Yan by his side. Now everything can never go back.

In the patter of rain, Bi Luochun's voice was still choked with sobs: "Qiangzi, when I reported that number to the police station, I was really desperate. At that time, I I didn't dare to think that you would come, I didn't dare to think that you could help me walk out of the police station... I really just felt that I had no face to see you. I came back hoping that you could forgive me, but everything I did, maybe It will only make you more disgusted and despised... I really wanted to die at that time..."

"I thought very clearly at that time, if you didn't come, I wouldn't blame you, I brought everything upon myself, and no one can blame me... But I know that it means that the person who cares about me the most in the world has completely ignored me. My life in this world is like a puddle of mud. There is no difference. So I thought at that time, if you didn’t come, when I left the police station and entered the shelter, I would die... I really thought about it clearly..."

"But you came, I... I was really happy when I saw you." Bi Luochun said, then sobbed: "I'm not happy that you came to save me, I'm happy to know that you You are still a hadron. No matter what time it is or what the situation is, you are still that stubborn one who has a stubborn temper but refuses to let go of the brotherhood. You have never changed, but I can never go back. ."

After Bi Luochun finished speaking, he once again couldn't help but lie down on the passenger seat and burst into tears.

What Fang Zhiqiang didn’t expect was that Bi Luochun’s mentality had become so decadent, and he was glad that he didn’t ignore it in anger. Otherwise, Bi Luochun might really seek death.

　"You're not going to die! Why did you break the pot and fall like this! Don't think about it, but you are relieved. What about your parents at home? They have been working hard all their lives, and their only hope is It’s you, but you have done all the wrong things yourself, and then let them send the white-haired people to the black-haired people, will you be able to die with peace of mind?" Fang Zhiqiang scolded Bi Luochun.

"Have you not been back home since you came back? Haven't you seen them yet? Whenever you have seen them, they still live in the dilapidated house you used to live in. A lot of people still have to work in the fields when they are old. They cannot be left behind in anything that young people do, not because they are willing to do it or they like it, but because they can’t do it otherwise! Because they want to work hard to buy a house for their son and find a wife. ! What about you, did you ever think about them when you were living and drinking? When you wanted to die, didn't you think about how they would feel if you cut out a piece of flesh from their hearts?"

"Qiangzi... stop talking, I'm not a human being... I'm confused..." Bi Luochun cried so hard that he could no longer speak, and reached out to slap himself.

Fang Zhiqiang grabbed him and said with a straight face: "That's enough, is it useful to hurt yourself like this?"

Fang Zhiqiang said, breathed out heavily, and then Asked Bi Luochun: "Do you want to smoke?" After saying that, he handed one over.

In fact, he wanted to smoke, and he also urgently wanted to use nicotine to anesthetize and relax himself. Bi Luochun's experience shocked him so much that he couldn't recover for a while.

Bi Luochun took the cigarette tremblingly. Fang Zhiqiang lit it for him and opened the window. The wind outside brought drizzle and hit his face coolly, making people feel a little relieved. Less boring.

The two smoked in silence for a while. Fang Zhiqiang saw that Bi Luochun had calmed down, so he asked him: "Then what do you plan to do in the future?"

Bi Luochun shook his head blankly: "...I haven't thought about it, and I don't know. I don't know anything now..."

Fang Zhiqiang sighed heavily in his heart, he could tell Well, Bi Luochun has been completely ruined.

"The next step is for you to stay in Shanghai, go somewhere else, or go back to your hometown?" Fang Zhiqiang asked patiently.

As soon as Bi Luochun heard about returning to his hometown, he immediately shook his head like a conditioned reflex: "No, if I go back like this, I have no shame to see my parents... The wrong things I have done cannot be Let them take responsibility for me in the end. They also expected me to provide for them in their old age in the future. I went back like this and it was difficult to even support myself. "

"I also know that I don't have the shame to stay in Shanghai, and there is no place for me here... I don't have the shame to see you. "Bi Luochun said shamefully, "Qiangzi, I'm sorry to cause you trouble... I really didn't mean to do this. I will think about it carefully these days. When I think it through, no matter what decision I make, I will go on with it. "

"I'm really grateful that you can help me. As it is now, there is no way I can repay you in the future... I'm already very sorry for you, and I don't expect you in this life. You can forgive me. I really can only say sorry to you and thank you. "

" "Go back, Qiangzi, I will find a place to live by myself and let myself think about the future." Sorry to bother you, Qiangzi. "Bi Luochun finally said, looking at his body, Fang Zhiqiang's body, and the mud and water all over the car, he smiled bitterly and said: "I'm so sorry, I still made your car like this, I'm really sorry. ”