"Actually, this is not necessarily a bad thing. Zhiqiang, do you still remember what I said to you when you first told me that you wanted to marry me? I told you, I will give you three Years, three years later, if you still want to marry me, I will marry you. What I do and say is actually to give you enough time to think clearly, do you only love me in your heart? Not really willing to marry me. But later, I still didn’t firm up my position, because I was eager to get married, I wanted to marry you, I wanted to have a family, and I wanted to have a broad shoulder to rely on. But it turned out that I was Wrong, I shouldn't have been like this. I was too irrational. I shouldn't have agreed to marry you so impulsively. If I am wrong, I am also wrong. It is not your fault alone, because maybe both of us are wrong. It's not suitable for marriage or being together at all." Wang Yaxin said calmly.
"No, Yaxin, I only have you in my heart." Fang Zhiqiang said quickly.
"Perhaps you don't believe this in your heart, right?" Wang Yaxin smiled, and then said: "Zhiqiang, I am already over thirty, and my children are so old, and I have I have had an unforgettable relationship experience, and I have also studied psychology, so I know a little bit about the relationship between men and women. In fact, I can see from the beginning that you like Li Xiaoxiao in your heart. You just It's just because you feel that you are not worthy of Li Xiaoxiao and do not want to hurt Li Xiaoxiao that you deliberately suppress your feelings for her. Of course, I know very well that you love me and you are a sincere person. You won't Fake, everything you did to me and Xiaoyu came from the bottom of my heart. I am very grateful to you and very touched, really. I think maybe you don’t even know what you really love in your heart. No one knows what they want. You are emotionally dull and in a mess. More often than not, you choose to escape and don't want to touch the feelings in your heart. You choose to go with the flow. You and I are good, we There is a relationship between a man and a woman inexplicably, and you feel that you only love me and want to be with me. This is because you don’t want to think about who you love, and you don’t want to make a choice. I think, if you were with me that day The person you had a relationship with was Li Xiaoxiao, so the person you want to marry now must be Li Xiaoxiao and not me, right?"
Listening to Wang Yaxin's words, Fang Zhiqiang fell silent. He felt that he He was actually somewhat unable to refute Wang Yaxin's words.
"Perhaps you have never known what your heart is like, but after you heard the news of Li Xiaoxiao's suicide last night, what were you thinking? How did you do it? You should probably understand what the state of your heart is. It also allowed me to shatter the bit of luck that I had been blinding myself to. I was also pretending to be confused. I clearly knew that you also liked Li Xiaoxiao. Yes, but I have been deceiving myself. I have always told myself that you, Fang Zhiqiang, actually just love me. You only have me in your heart. No.No matter what, as long as we get married, you will treat me wholeheartedly and we will be happy. But facts have proven everything, what is supposed to come will still come, and what is wrong will always be wrong. You, Fang Zhiqiang, are destined not to belong to me, Wang Yaxin. I could deceive myself before, but now the facts are in front of me. I can’t deceive myself anymore. I can’t force myself to be with someone who still has another woman in his heart. I can't do it for a man to get married. Even if I love him again, I can't do it. "Wang Yaxin shook her head.
"I didn't blame you for anything. Really, you didn't do anything wrong. You were just following your heart. It's not you or me who's wrong, it's the two of us who are wrong, because we are not suitable and forcing ourselves to be together will have such consequences. I sat there and thought about it all night last night, and finally in the morning I decided to cancel the wedding. In addition, I also chose to confess everything to my parents. In fact, you are right. Confession is far better than deception. My parents' ability to bear it is far stronger than I imagined. They did not fall. Zhiqiang, I am very grateful to you. Really, during this period of time, you have given me the warmth of a home, you have given me a lot of tenderness, and you have also given Xiaoyu a lot of care, so that I, too, understand Xiaoyu. Many things taught Xiaoyu what love is, and also taught me what love is. "
"You spent two hundred thousand for this wedding. I know that if I return this two hundred thousand to you, you will be even more sad and blame yourself. I understand you very well. character, so I won’t return the money to you. You must have some money you borrowed from me. I don’t know the exact amount. Whether it’s what I owe you or what you owe me, let’s pay it back, including the money you borrowed from me and my Let's offset the money spent on buying a car for you, so that you won't have any psychological burden, and you can start your life again and live more easily. "Wang Yaxin finally said this and smiled slightly.
Fang Zhiqiang looked at Wang Yaxin blankly and murmured: "Is it really impossible for us anymore? "
When Wang Yaxin heard this, she still smiled, then shook her head and said: "It's not that it's impossible, but that we are not suitable. Because you simply don't know what you want in your heart. Even if we forcefully deceive ourselves into being together, the result will not be happiness. What happened this time may seem like an accident, but it is actually inevitable. Zhiqiang, no matter what happens in the future, I'm not saying that it will definitely be impossible between us. People are not gods. Who knows what will happen in the future? No one can say for sure, but no matter who you are with, you have to think clearly about who you love in your heart and who you want to be with first. The most important thing to know is who you really love in your heart. What is wanted. You have always told me that you should follow your own heart, and you have always done so. You do whatever you want in your heart. But the most wrong thing about you is that your own heart is not the same.You don’t know what you want to do or what you want, so look at what you have done over the years, you have done it here and there, and the same goes for relationships. If you continue like this, any woman who follows you will feel insecure. Just like me, even if I still insist on marrying you, I will live in fear and worry every day. I will be afraid that one night you will I will be called away by a certain phone call from a certain woman, I will leave with the same determination as last night, and I may even never come back. I am no longer a little girl, my children are already that big. Please forgive me, I cannot live this kind of life, and this kind of life is not what I want, even though I love you very much. So, Zhiqiang, so be it. ”
When Wang Yaxin said this, she, who had been forcing herself to smile calmly, finally couldn’t help but shed tears.
PS: I owe everyone four thanks. Chapter, this is the second supplementary chapter, I still owe you two chapters.