"You love her very much?"
"Love, love her very much, but that was before. Now, I have lost the last bit of affection for her. She is just a memory to me. In the memory She is already dead." Fang Zhiqiang shook his head.
"Of course, my bad mood is not because of her, or not just because of her." Fang Zhiqiang continued, and then began to talk in detail about his time with Li Xiaoxiao , various experiences, and some thoughts in his heart, he talked about it without reservation, and finally talked about Bi Luochun and Liu Yan.
"Yaxin, do you think God is fair to me? You think it's fair, why do so many things happen to me? If you want to say it's unfair, why do you still let me Met you? At least at this time there is someone who is willing to chat with me and listen to me talk about these boring things." Fang Zhiqiang said with a smile as he lay there.
Wang Yaxin didn't speak for a long time, and finally said: "Zhiqiang, the reason why you are in so much pain now is just because you are too strong. You think you are Optimus Prime and you can carry the whole world. World, you take all the things on yourself, keep all the pain to yourself, and are too good to the people around you, but don’t forget that you are not a superman, you are just an ordinary person. You can't afford the whole world, that's the reason for your pain."
"No, I'm not actually a strong person. I never said what I must become. I think I In fact, he is a very unmotivated person who just takes things as they come, and never thought about how awesome a person he would become one day." Fang Zhiqiang shook his head.
"Your need to be strong is not reflected in how much money you have and what kind of person you want to be. What you want to be strong is your heart. The ex-girlfriend you mentioned was obviously borrowed for her. Why do you have to pay back the money yourself? Even though you know that she has betrayed you, you still insist on paying back the debt. Why? Isn't it just because you want to be strong? You insist that it is your responsibility, that is Your responsibility for this love. Do you think love should not be equated with money? You have to pay for the love in your heart. Why are you angry and sad about Li Xiaoxiao? You saved Li Xiaoxiao , it stands to reason that it is reasonable for her to repay you. Even if she cheated on you, she was doing it for your own good. The salary she gave you, your help in paying off your debts, and all the kindness she did to you should not be in your heart. Burden, if it were ordinary people, they would accept it calmly, right? Why are you so distressed and sad? Or is it because you want to be strong? To be strong, you don’t want others to give you charity. You hope that everything you get is because of your own efforts. You get it by being upright, isn't it necessary to be strong? Don't talk about others, talk about me. I actually know that you are having a hard time, at least in terms of money. I want to help you. I have also counted I want to help you every time, but every timeYou refused once, and every time I asked you for money, you always refused and even got a little angry. I could tell at that time that you were a very strong man, so I never took the initiative to say anything since then. I want to help you with anything, especially regarding money and things. It’s not that I don’t treat you as a friend or help you, but I’m afraid of hurting your self-esteem, and I don’t want you to be in trouble or feel uncomfortable. "Wang Yaxin sat up and looked at Fang Zhiqiang and said.
Fang Zhiqiang was stunned and looked at Wang Yaxin blankly, speechless for a while.
" You are a very strong man, arguably the strongest man I have ever met. No matter how life treats you, you have never complained. You have always treated life with your own serious attitude towards life. You have never been overwhelmed by life or forced to change yourself. This is It's very rare, just like you said to me that time, everyone has their own attitude towards life and everyone's principles. No matter what life treats you, you always insist on your principles and never change. Moreover, no matter how much psychological pain and torture you have suffered, you are unwilling to say it. You still show your smile to the people around you, give happiness to everyone, and keep the pain in your heart to bear it alone. That’s why I say you are the most mentally powerful man I have ever met. "Wang Yaxin then said to Fang Zhiqiang.
"But you are also the most fragile man at heart. "Wang Yaxin added another sentence.
"Lao Tzu once said in the Tao Te Ching that in the way of trading, the hard is easy to break, and only the most yin and soft can synthesize the world. The weak in the world are like water. , but the best is like water. Although this sentence refers to the way people behave in the world, it is equally applicable to you. It is hard and easy to break, because your heart is too strong, like a square, with edges and corners. Once you touch that edge, it will hurt others, hurt yourself, and even scratch you. Hurt yourself. Your vulnerability is actually your own self-esteem. What seems normal to others is unacceptable to you. You are like a snail, carrying a heavy shell to protect yourself and show your most powerful side to others. In fact, you have forgotten that you are also fragile inside and need more protection and care from others. "Wang Yaxin said slowly.
After Wang Yaxin finished speaking, she folded her arms across her chest. The wind on the mountain was very strong. She still felt comfortable in front of her, but she was already trembling a little at this moment.
< br />Fang Zhiqiang took off his coat, walked over and put it on Wang Yaxin.
“I’m not cold, you can wear it yourself, it’s so cold. "Wang Yaxin was unwilling and prepared to take away Fang Zhiqiang's clothes, but was suppressed by Fang Zhiqiang.
"Wear it, don't catch a cold. I'm not cold, and I'm not afraid of the cold. You just Didn’t you say that too?? I am a very strong man, not to mention invulnerable, but at least this little wind cannot knock me down. "Fang Zhiqiang said with a smile.
"Is that what I meant? All nonsense. "Wang Yaxin rolled her eyes at Fang Zhiqiang, but her tone was full of tenderness. She didn't say anything about taking off Fang Zhiqiang's coat. Instead, she tightly wrapped Fang Zhiqiang's coat around herself.
" Actually, I have never thought about who I am, and no one has ever told me what kind of person I am. I think maybe no one has thought about understanding me, including myself. When I heard you say that today, I realized that I am actually a bit like what you said. Maybe I really want to be too strong, and just because I want to be strong, I have been very tired over the years, and I have suffered a lot of injuries. And because I want to be strong, I have hurt many people around me. For example, Li Xiaoxiao, she obviously wanted to help me, but she was scolded by me every time, and in the end she had to come up with these ways to help me. "Fang Zhiqiang said with a sigh.
"Maybe she doesn't know that the way she chooses to help you is exactly the way that hurts you the most and is the most unacceptable to you. "Wang Yaxin said lightly.