‘Can’t get love’.
Four words.
People who have never experienced this feeling will never know how cruel and devastating these four words are!
You can’t love, but you have to love, you can’t let go, you can’t let go, you can’t love, you can’t hate.
Just like Fang Zhiqiang and Wang Yaxin now.
He wanted to give up this relationship, but the more he wanted to give it up deliberately, the more he fell into an endless struggle, unable to extricate himself for a long time.
He wanted to let himself go so that Wang Yaxin would no longer affect his emotions, mentality, and even thoughts. But the more he wanted to let go, the more easily his emotions were affected by Wang Yaxin. Even if she just said a simple sentence, Fang Zhiqiang could think about it.
If you can’t love, how can Fang Zhiqiang and Wang Yaxin love in this relationship? If I really love her with 100% sincerity, what kind of status will I have? Fang Zhiqiang wanted to do many things for Wang Yaxin, but he knew that he had no position to do it. Moreover, for Wang Yaxin, perhaps his love would make her feel even more stressed.
I wish that a person who loves you to the extreme doesn’t know how to hate you. Even if you cut out a hundred bloody holes in his heart with a knife, every time The moment he sees you, he will still greet you with a smile, and he will also use his humble love to cater to you and protect you...
He wants to love, but it is difficult to go further. Let go, but can't do it at all. I want to hate, but I am powerless.
It’s strange, it’s just that I fell in love with someone I shouldn’t have loved. The outcome of the relationship was already destined from the beginning. No matter how hard I try, what’s the use?
This is love that cannot be achieved.
For Fang Zhiqiang now, he realizes the distance between himself and Wang Yaxin, and also realizes the difference in ideas between himself and her. These factors make it almost impossible for the two people to come together. They are together, but as mentioned before, it is difficult for him to let go of her, and it is also difficult for him to let go.
"Haha... you finally admitted it?!" While Fang Zhiqiang was deep in thought, Bi Luochun suddenly said.
These words brought back Fang Zhiqiang’s thoughts. He turned to look at Bi Luochun. Fang Zhiqiang said seriously: “I’m not embarrassed to admit it. I’m just a mortal with flesh and blood. There are seven emotions and six desires. Who I fall in love with is beyond my control, but I can control my behavior. I have done nothing wrong. Even if I love someone I shouldn’t love, there is nothing wrong with love itself, and I haven’t done anything wrong, so what am I afraid of admitting?”
Fang Zhiqiang’s righteous words made Bi Luochun couldn’t help but nod his head. In fact, for Bi Luochun, he could not understand the feeling in Fang Zhiqiang’s heart because he had never experienced what Fang Zhiqiang felt. After everything he has experienced, how can he know what Fang Zhiqiang is thinking in his heart?
"Maybe you will say that I am a scumbag. How can a person fall in love with two women at the same time? But Lao Bi, when I loved Xiaoxiao, I never had any objection to Yaxin. I have never had any unrealistic fantasies about her, and now that Xiaoxiao and I are divorced, I have to admit that it was Yaxin who made me come out of that sad past. It is equivalent to a well I encountered in the desert. It filled my heart that should have been empty during that time, and also healed my heart that should have been bruised and bruised."
Fang Zhiqiang Bi Luochun said so many words, which was beyond Bi Luochun's expectations.
He looked at Fang Zhiqiang seriously at this moment, looking at the man he was very familiar with.
Time is changing, and so are people. In fact, the young and impulsive Fang Zhiqiang back then has long since disappeared. The man standing in front of him now is a man with many worries.
Perhaps it can be said that such a man is mature, but it can also be said that such a man still fails to see through the nature of the world and still needs to practice.
"Qiangzi, I can understand your difficulties, but I can't understand your mentality. To be honest, I have never had your mentality, so I can't feel that feeling at all. Even during the time when I was messing around, in my heart, Liu Yan was still the only woman I loved, and I had never had a crush on any other woman."
Bi Luochun's The answer made Fang Zhiqiang smile helplessly again, and then said: "Yes, you can all be consistent. Maybe it's just me who doesn't know how to stick to my heart and prevent it from changing at all. In short, life As a human being, I'm sorry."
"Oh! You even used the famous saying "Disqualification in the World"? It seems that you are really entangled!" Bi Luochun joked.
“You kid!” Fang Zhiqiang helplessly patted Bi Luochun on the arm, and then said again: “Telling you this is like playing the piano to a cow!”
"Haha, you just discovered it?" Bi Luochun laughed.
After a while, Fang Zhiqiang calmed down and his expression returned to seriousness. He looked at Bi Luochun again and said, "But Lao Bi, what I said to you tonight really made me feel better. Many, in fact, sometimes talking does not necessarily have to be for the purpose of solving problems. Talking itself is a way to solve problems."
"Well, you haveThis understanding is good, and my hard work tonight has not been in vain. Let's go, go back quickly, otherwise, I will really have to pack up and get out tonight! ”
Bi Luochun was joking while turning around and taking the lead.
Looking at Bi Luochun’s swagger, Fang Zhiqiang shook his head helplessly. .
He is always like this, sometimes serious and sometimes out of touch. In the past few years, perhaps Bi Luochun is the only one who has maintained his original appearance without completely changing, right?< br />
Following Bi Luochun, Fang Zhiqiang couldn’t help but appreciate the beautiful scenery of this place again.
“Isn’t this place nice? "Bi Luochun said casually as he got into the car.
"Well, it's not bad. "Fang Zhiqiang nodded and answered sincerely.
"Remember, this place is called Wangyou Cliff. "Bi Luochun got into the car halfway, stopped, put one foot in the car and one foot on the ground, and said to Fang Zhiqiang seriously word by word.
" Wangyouya? What an old-fashioned name! "Fang Zhiqiang nodded.
"Don't get me wrong, I came up with this name myself. In fact, I don't know what this place is called. I just thought of the name because of something I felt at the time. "Bi Luochun then got into the car carelessly and continued.
Fang Zhiqiang smiled helplessly again. After getting in the car, he said: "It's a good name. From now on, I will also call it 'forget'. Worried about the cliff. "
When going back, both Zhiqiang and Bi Luochun were in high spirits along the way. Although it was almost two o'clock in the morning, no one was sleepy. They were joking with each other, as if they were answering questions. It was the same as in those carefree days.
However, such carefreeness did not last long. When he arrived downstairs in the community, Bi Luochun sighed helplessly. He said in one breath: "Hey... no matter how much you want to be a free and easy person, you still have to return to real life! "
"Why do I feel so helpless when I hear what you say? "Fang Zhiqiang said as he got out of the car.
"That's not it! Isn’t reality just a process of constant compromise? This is not helplessness, what is it? " Bi Luochun affirmed.
Fang Zhiqiang smiled and said: "Haha, Lao Bi, I think you have hope of becoming a philosopher! "
"No, no, no, Mr. Fang and I can't compare to you on this point. You can say 'scum' so plausibly. I think the title of philosopher is more suitable for you. . ”
Bi Luochun waved his hands repeatedly and said with great humility.
"You kid!" Fang Zhiqiang chased Bi Luochun and wanted to slap him on the head, but this kid ran away relatively quickly.
"Hurry up, I won't leave the door open for you later!" Bi Luochun disappeared in a flash, while Fang Zhiqiang followed helplessly behind.
Back home, as soon as they entered the door, Bi Luochun and Fang Zhiqiang heard Liu Yan's roaring voice: "You still know how to come back?! Why don't you wait until dawn to come back?!"
"Oh, my second uncle, can you please calm down a little, so you are not afraid of waking up the child?" Bi Luochun hurried up and said humbly.
"You still know about the child?!" Liu Yan continued to ignore it and shouted angrily.
It was only then that Bi Luochun heard that the child was crying loudly in the room.
"What's going on?" Hearing the child's cry, Bi Luochun slipped into the bedroom. Fang Zhiqiang originally wanted to follow him in, but after thinking about it, it seemed a little uncomfortable to go in by himself. It was convenient, so I just walked to the living room and sat down slowly.
Fang Zhiqiang, who was sitting on the sofa, listened to Liu Yan's non-stop noise and Xiao Chunzi's crying voice getting more and more loud. He couldn't help but turn his head and glance at Xiao Chunzi. At this age, children at this time also begin to become more and more naughty and become more and more difficult to discipline.
Fang Zhiqiang couldn’t help but think of his little Ai Li. At this time, had he fallen asleep peacefully, or was he crying non-stop like Xiao Chunzi?
After arguing for a while, Liu Yan still didn’t stop. Bi Luochun was also made noisy by her and ran out of the bedroom with the child in her arms. Fortunately, the child was basically not very good at this time. There was a fuss.
Liu Yan watched Bi Luochun run out, and then followed him, and continued to shout to Bi Luochun: "You said you have some shame, don't you? You are a person with children now. , do you think you are still a young boy? Not going home in the middle of the night, running around? Can you hear what I say?!"
Bi Luochun was already dizzy early in the morning At this moment, he was only focused on coaxing Xiao Chunzi in his arms. As for what Liu Yan said, he pretended not to hear it at all.
"Qiangzi, go to bed first." Bi Luochun walked to the living room and suddenly said to Fang Zhiqiang on the sofa.
When Fang Zhiqiang heard this, he also nodded. Looking at the current situation, it seemed that his existence could not solve any problems, so he might as well sleep peacefully.
"Okay, take care of yourself." Fang Zhiqiang stood up, gave Bi Luochun a meaningful look, and then walked towards the guest bedroom.
Bi LuochunWith a depressed look on his face, he looked at the back of Fang Zhiqiang walking into the bedroom coolly, and couldn't help but look envious. How much did he want to go to bed as coolly as Fang Zhiqiang? It's a pity...
"What are you looking at?! You won't be able to sleep unless you explain everything to me clearly tonight!" Liu Yan noticed the envious look on Bi Luochun's face when he looked at Fang Zhiqiang With an expression on his face, he immediately said fiercely again.
Bi Luochun looked helpless. Did he not even have the capital to envy now?
"Old Bi, let me tell you, this kind of thing only happens for the first time and countless times. Don't think that I don't know. You dared to sneak out tonight and didn't come back until now. Next time you I dare not come back until dawn, so I must explain this matter to you clearly this time, otherwise you will become more and more arrogant in the future!" Liu Yan continued to talk to Bi Luochun, and Bi Luochun Bi Luochun could only helplessly look at Xiao Chunzi in his arms. Only when he saw his lovely eyebrows could Bi Luochun feel a sense of comfort.