Liu Jiaying had lost to Fang Zhiqiang unknowingly. Perhaps she didn't even realize that from the moment she first came into contact with Fang Zhiqiang until now, although on the surface, it seems that Liu Jiaying has been formulating various plans. Such a plan to lure Fang Zhiqiang into the trap, but in fact, Fang Zhiqiang was able to resolve it according to his own ideas every time. Until the end, it was Liu Jiaying who played herself in.
After Fang Zhiqiang left, Liu Jiaying once again fell into a tangle. She now felt that she did not want to delay Fang Zhiqiang anymore because she wanted to make Fang Zhiqiang her friend, although she knew that this It was hard to do, but she still wanted to try.
However, she was also afraid that after she really gave up her cooperative relationship with Fang Zhiqiang as Fang Zhiqiang said, Fang Zhiqiang would never have anything to do with her again. At that time, No matter how eager he was to get to know Fang Zhiqiang, Fang Zhiqiang would no longer have the slightest enthusiasm for him, which was also an extremely uncomfortable thing for Liu Jiaying.
That’s how a woman like her is, she will be particularly determined about what she wants to get, and can even be called stubborn.
What's more, Fang Zhiqiang's words completely hit her weak heart. Although she looked beautiful on the surface, in fact, who was not born a lonely person? When you are enduring loneliness alone, are the prosperous scenes of the past just a passing thing? Only that moment of loneliness belongs to you.
And loneliness is the most difficult thing for people to overcome, which is why so many people say that strong people can often endure loneliness.
When you realize that from the moment a person is born, he must learn to taste loneliness. After enduring loneliness, he can still choose to live a positive and optimistic life. Such people are not exactly legendary heroes. ism?
For Liu Jiaying, she is not a hero yet and cannot overcome the fear caused by loneliness. Loneliness is also her biggest enemy at the moment.
In the past, she used various sensory stimulations to help herself forget about loneliness, but often late at night, that feeling would still come out as promised. Of course she knew how to overcome loneliness. However, her past experiences have restricted her, making her no longer willing to show her true self to anyone.
Because she is afraid of being deceived, afraid of being hurt, and afraid of being laughed at.
Liu Jiaying does not deny that this is a kind of cowardice, but she is just unwilling to taste that kind of pain again, even if she lives another self, even if in the eyes of others, she is a heartless woman , is better than enduring that kind of pain.
But something unexpected happened, and she originally thought she could continue like this., even when loneliness strikes, you will still be at a loss, but as long as you have enough time to forget about loneliness, you can dilute that feeling.
The appearance of Fang Zhiqiang completely broke Liu Jiaying's fantasy, and her original life direction was completely disrupted. Especially after Fang Zhiqiang said those words to her, she became aware of It turns out that in Fang Zhiqiang's eyes, he is no longer the person he hoped for. Fang Zhiqiang has seen through his heart and weakness, which is dangerous and painful for Liu Jiaying.
She worked hard for so long, just to be a cool person in the eyes of others, but in the end, she was still discovered.
This feeling made her a little panicked and at a loss, but at the same time, her heart was also extremely longing for the long-lost happiness that even existed only in legends.
Such thoughts made Liu Jiaying shake her head instantly. She couldn't believe that she could still be so naive. She had already tasted the ups and downs in this world for thirty-one years. , which ones are eternal and which ones are temporary, Liu Jiaying naturally knows it clearly.
The so-called happiness is described as ‘eternal’ because it is too short-lived.
The reason why the so-called pain is described as "it will all pass" is precisely because it will actually leave an irremovable scar in people's hearts forever.
Between two evils, Liu Jiaying decisively chose the latter. At that time, she no longer believed in happiness, nor did she believe that she could get happiness. Even if she did get it, it would be short-lived and boring. Because for her, happiness starts from the beginning and she can see the end at a glance. Such a story is unattractive and a waste of time.
How could Liu Jiaying, who had thought everything through, be so stupid as to waste time on those things?
She thought that she had seen through the world of mortals, and she thought that she would spend the rest of her life in "freedom".
What is hateful is that the appearance of Fang Zhiqiang broke her illusion. No matter how hard she tried to forget the word 'happiness' at the moment, all the happy moments in the past still remained. It kept popping up in Liu Jiaying's mind.
She knew that she was addicted to happiness again, and all this was because of Fang Zhiqiang!
For Fang Zhiqiang, what he wants is this kind of effect. He knows that doing this is a bit cruel for a woman like Liu Jiaying. Otherwise, after so long, it will never happen. No one had ever said that to her.
But cruel things can often have unexpected effects. What Liu Jiaying did to herself made herFang Zhiqiang doesn't have time to think about so much anymore. As Fang Zhiqiang himself said, he is a person who is forced by all kinds of things every day. He has no time to think about how he can be happy, and he has no time to think about how he can be happy. There is no time to think about life like Liu Jiaying, so all he can see is the present. As long as everything in the present is dealt with, those things that are about to happen, or have not happened yet, will be left until they appear. Solve it.
This is not short-sightedness, but strategy.
In every period of time, people have things they must do and things they can choose to do. If the former is met, you can plan for the future and even plan every step of the way. All considered good.
However, if you don’t even complete what you have to do, then everything else will be meaningless.
Of course Fang Zhiqiang also knows that his approach may lead to two results. If Liu Jiaying can figure it out and do it according to his own ideas, Fang Zhiqiang will naturally be happy to see it. Of course There is another possibility.
That is, Liu Jiaying was hit by herself, causing her to become angry and angry, and her attitude towards herself would become even worse.
Of course, everything has risks, and Fang Zhiqiang still dares to take such risks. After all, in the current situation, if he does not make a choice, Huaqiang’s next path will be It’s harder to walk.
Instead of enduring Liu Jiaying’s methods again and again, it is better to be more direct. Maybe, there will really be a glimmer of hope.
But Fang Zhiqiang had calculated everything, but he had not calculated that Liu Jiaying had already forgotten how to treat a friend sincerely and how to get someone who could talk to him heart-to-heart. friend.
Some people say that whoever you want to be, just deliberately pretend to be who you are. If you pretend for a long time, you will get used to that kind of disguise, so you will really Became that kind of person.
Liu Jiaying is in this situation. No one is born a bad person. Those bad people often become bad people because they encounter things in life that are unimaginable and unbearable for others.
However, once a person is bad, it is too difficult to become good again, and Liu Jiaying has truly realized this.
She struggled for a long time. She really wanted to be friends with Fang Zhiqiang. On the one hand, it was because Fang Zhiqiang really made her feel curious. The most important thing was because Fang Zhiqiang could see through her heart. This It feels like you are your most tacit friend. You don't have to say a word, but the other person already understands everything in your heart.
However, when sheWhen I have this thought, I find that I have already forgotten how to get along with friends, let alone how to make others become my friends.
This feeling made Liu Jiaying almost crazy. She was hovering on the edge of collapse. The calm and calm she used to be had long since disappeared. In this private room where she was the only one, she showed The truest self and the weakest self.