"If you have really decided, I have just said that although I do not agree, I will not force you to change your mind, but I must remind you that there is only darkness and evil that you cannot imagine. If If you are lucky enough, you may never experience such a dark moment in your life, but there are almost no people who are lucky in their life. So, I hope you are really ready for everything, when you really arrive Outside, when you encounter things that make you at a loss, you can still maintain a calm heart and always remember that life is the most important. As long as life is still there, all other problems will not be a problem."
Li Yonggui now wanted to share with Li Xiaoxiao the horrific things he had seen in his life, but looking at Li Xiaoxiao’s current situation, he knew that he seemed to have no chance, so he stopped saying that. many.
Li Xiaoxiao nodded, and Wang Xia on the side also nodded. At least, hearing what her uncle said at this moment made Wang Xia feel enlightened. Thinking back to her last night, When sharing her experience with Li Xiaoxiao and comparing it with what her uncle said, Wang Xia discovered that in fact, in her uncle's eyes, she was just a little girl.
Seeing things develop to this point, Xiao’s mother became anxious. She originally thought that Li Yonggui would stop her daughter, but she didn’t expect that in the end, after chatting, she actually agreed. , and it seemed that the two of them had a pretty good chat.
"What's wrong with you? Do you really want her to get out?!" Xiao's mother patted Li Yonggui's arm and said hastily.
Li Yonggui did not answer, but just lowered his head silently.
How could he not understand his own daughter? Even if he could stop her now, who else would be able to stop her a hundred years after her parents are gone?
"You! Why don't you speak?" Xiao's mother suddenly became more anxious when she saw Li Yonggui's silence. She didn't know what she should say to stop Li Yonggui. Xiaoxiao, but at least she couldn't be like this, saying nothing and just watching her daughter jump into the fire pit.
"Xiaoxiao, you..."
"Mom, you don't need to say it. My daughter will grow up sooner or later. You can't accompany me for the rest of my life. , I still have to go on by myself. If there is really so much darkness that I don’t know about in this world, let me come into contact with it earlier, at least before I encounter it when I am immersed in self-satisfaction. It's much better to do this."
Li Xiaoxiao saw her mother opening her mouth to prepare for a long speech, and immediately spoke quickly and said so.
“But Xiaoxiao, you are still justA..."
"Don't worry, Mom, I will always keep in touch with my family. No matter what happens, I will let you know as soon as possible. Moreover, I also have enough sense of self-protection. When the last resort comes, I can also contact the official personnel and seek their help. "
Li Xiaoxiao continued to explain.
"What about the child? Do you plan to let your children travel with you on a poor trip? "Xiao's mother continued.
To be honest, Li Xiaoxiao has been thinking about it for so long. This problem is also the most troublesome problem for her. She is reluctant to leave the child behind, but she can take the child with her. This situation is indeed inappropriate.
Moreover, Li Xiaoxiao herself doesn’t know how long it will take her to go out this time. When she comes back again, she doesn’t know when it will be. If she doesn’t take her children with her, If so, Li Xiaoxiao was worried that she wouldn't be able to bear that kind of isolation and loneliness.
However, she suddenly remembered what Wang Xia said last night: "Xiaoxiao, growing up is often painful. This, Whether you are an animal or a human being, they are all eternal. Since you want to transform, you must naturally shed a layer of skin. All pain is a stepping stone for your progress and a factor for your sublimation. ”
“Keep the child. When he grows up, I can share with him everything I have done now. By then, if he also has this idea, I think I I will definitely support him! ”
Li Xiaoxiao said this with a very firm tone, although it is far from that time yet.
Xiao’s mother could no longer say anything. She had seen Li Xiaoxiao's determination and understood that Li Xiaoxiao almost had to go out this time. She knew that she no longer had the ability to persuade Li Xiaoxiao to stay, but she was still anxious.
“What the hell happened! I just said, if Zhiqiang is still here, how can..."
"Okay! "
" Hearing Xiao's mother's nagging, Li Yonggui suddenly spoke up and interrupted her.
"What's wrong?" What I said was wrong. If Zhiqiang was still here, would Xiaoxiao be like this? All this was caused by divorce. Wasn't everything originally fine? "Xiao's mother continued to speak, but she could notice that Li Yonggui's expression looked increasingly anxious and unhappy.
In fact, she knew what Li Yonggui was thinking. Li Yonggui just didn't want to When he mentioned 'Fang Zhiqiang', to be precise, he didn't want to mention Fang Zhiqiang in front of Li Xiaoxiao, because he knew that although Li Xiaoxiao behaved like ordinary people on the surface, and was even so optimistic, in fact , Fang Zhiqiang is still a very important person to her.Fang Zhiqiang has a great influence on her. Whenever she mentions Fang Zhiqiang in front of Li Xiaoxiao, it may make Li Xiaoxiao feel sad, or it may make her hesitant and hesitant.
Seeing Li Yonggui's increasingly serious expression, Xiao's mother finally stopped. She knew that if she continued to speak, Li Yonggui might even get angry, but she was also really worried about Li Xiaoxiao's current situation. In this state, if she really goes out, I will definitely not worry about it.
“Xiaoxiao, in the final analysis, it’s my parents’ fault. If we could have taken you out when we were young...”
“Can you stop talking nonsense?!” Li Yonggui Xiao Ma's voice was interrupted again, which made Xiao Ma even more anxious. This time, she didn't know what she said wrong, but when her emotions reached this point, she couldn't help but say it.
When Li Xiaoxiao saw this, he immediately said: "Mom and Dad, please don't be sad, let alone blame yourself. This is a decision I made by myself. It has nothing to do with you. I I know that I am selfish in doing this and do not take your feelings into consideration, but please believe me, I will definitely handle my own affairs and will not let you worry. If after I go out, I really encounter something that cannot be solved. I will definitely take the initiative to discuss the matter with you when the time comes."
Everything Li Xiaoxiao said was just to reassure her parents, but she knew that it was useless, just like Like my little love Li, no matter when or what age he reaches, in my eyes, he will always be a child who will not grow up. When he goes out to do something, I will definitely worry about it. What's more, she is still a girl and the only daughter in the family. She can understand her parents' feelings.
"Xiaoxiao, since you know all this, are you still not going to change your mind?"
Li Yonggui spoke again, not only Xiao's mother, but also Li Yonggui didn't want Li Xiaoxiao stays at home obediently? Who knows how much time they have left in their lives? Even if you can't watch your daughter find happiness, shouldn't you let your only daughter stay with you in the last part of your life?
How cruel is this for an old man?
But Li Yonggui obviously couldn’t say this, not even Xiao’s mother.
"Yes, Dad, if I fail to go out this time, I believe I will regret it for the rest of my life. Maybe I can get some other things, but what I lose will always be pursued. I won’t come back.” Li Xiaoxiao said seriously.
"Okay...ok..."
Li Yonggui nodded repeatedly and said "ok" several times in a row.
Li Xiaoxiao naturally understood what he meant.
"Mom and Dad, my daughter is unfilial and failed to stay by your side when she should have been filial. But when I come back, I will definitely stay by your side all the time, not even for a moment. Will leave." Li Xiaoxiao noticed the helplessness and sadness on Li Yonggui's face.
"Haha, I vaguely remember that you seemed to have said this when I was recovering from a serious illness..." Li Xiaoxiao cried and laughed, and said this in a low voice. talk.
But these words struck Li Xiaoxiao’s heart, making her eyes moist instantly.
Several people were silent for a long time. This time, Wang Xia did not speak. She knew that in this atmosphere, it was not the time for her to speak out. If she said something inappropriate, it would even be a disservice.
"Xiaoxiao, you don't have to blame yourself. Parents will always let go of their children when they are older. We have restricted your freedom for so long. Now, it should indeed be returned to you where it belongs. You are free. In fact, what your mother just said was right. We are sorry for you, so we should not ask for anything from you now."
Li Yonggui regained his serious expression. , and his normal tone, you can't hear his sadness and joy at all.
But the more he behaved like this, the more uncomfortable Li Xiaoxiao felt.
But Li Xiaoxiao never said a word again. No matter what she said now, it seemed so pale and feeble. It couldn't explain anything, but it only proved her cruelty even more.
Silence is Li Xiaoxiao’s last reply to her parents.
She stood up slowly and cleared the dishes on the table, but Xiao’s mother suddenly stood up and while cleaning them, she said: "Let us do it by ourselves. Wait until you come back. At that time, maybe we want to clean up, but we don’t have the ability. At that time, it’s the time when you really should fulfill your filial piety. I hope your dad and I can still be lucky enough to wait until that moment.”
"Auntie, why do you have to be so sad! Xiaoxiao just went out for a walk. She might have gone out for half a month, experienced the dangers of society, and then came back on her own! Why do you have to be so sad?"
Wang Xia finally couldn't bear it any longer. If a few of them continued to communicate like this, they would have to hold each other's hands and cry together?
Wang Xia was most unaccustomed to such scenes. She hugged and cried together. She was not that kind of character, but just watching, it seemed too hard-hearted.