Fang Zhiqiang was stunned. He could see that Wang Yaxin's mood seemed a little wrong at the moment, but he never expected that Wang Yaxin would actually say these words.
"Qiangzi, I admit that I really want to be with you. No matter what way, as long as I can be with you, maybe I will be happy."
Looking at Fang Zhiqiang's silence, Wang Yaxin continued to speak, as if there was no one around at the moment, Wang Yaxin said all the truest thoughts in his heart.
"But my rationality finally told me that a tough melon is not sweet. Although this is already a very old saying, it is still applicable in today's society. Have you ever Have you ever thought about, if we really get married like this, what will our life be like after marriage? Have you ever asked yourself, do you really love me?"
Listening to Wang Yaxin's solemn tone , Fang Zhiqiang is still silent. He can't give Wang Yaxin an answer now, because even Fang Zhiqiang himself doesn't know what the answer is. At that time, maybe he was really hot-headed, so he said such words at that time, right?
Thinking back carefully, my mind was always confused during that period. Before I was discharged from the hospital, what I worried about most every day was Li Xiaoxiao’s condition. I was afraid that Li Xiaoxiao would be unhappy because of the previous misunderstanding. It is precisely because of this that I have lost even the most basic judgment.
At that time, I also thought about various consequences, and thought that Li Xiaoxiao would say such words to me, but the moment I heard those words, my emotions were completely out of control, and my reason followed. After disappearing, he turned around and said those words to Wang Yaxin.
But now that Fang Zhiqiang thinks about it, he actually doesn’t feel regretful. After all, this is a good result for Li Xiaoxiao or himself, right?
As for Wang Yaxin, Fang Zhiqiang now knows that he did not think it through at the time. At that time, he only felt that Wang Yaxin should be given an explanation for her efforts for so long, and that she should be given a stable and happy family. However, But he ignored her feelings. She was also a woman with a complete personality. Under the circumstances at that time, saying such words would indeed put her in a dilemma.
"I understand now that I did not do well enough at that time, and I did not consider it. What if..."
"Qiangzi, what I need is not you. Don't you understand this painless explanation?" Wang Yaxin became a little anxious, and looking at Fang Zhiqiang's sincere apology, she immediately interrupted Fang Zhiqiang and said so.
Yes, no one knows what Wang Yaxin wants, but she knows in her heart how deep her obsession with Fang Zhiqiang is.Even in that situation, I almost couldn't defeat my inner desires, let alone that both of them have calmed down now.
In fact, what Wang Yaxin wants has never changed. She just wants Fang Zhiqiang to say those three words to her.
However, Wang Yaxin also knows in her heart that everyone is now thirty years old and has long passed the age of hearing about love. Although some love words still sound like they can make people's hearts beat faster, but No one can tell whether it is love or an irregular heartbeat.
Fang Zhiqiang slowly lowered his head. Although he didn’t understand women and was like a fool when it came to women, Wang Yaxin had made it so obvious that he could still see that Wang Yaxin wanted to express What does it mean.
After being silent for a long time, Fang Zhiqiang still did not raise his head, but said softly: 'Yaxin, I don't want to deceive you, nor do I want to deceive myself. I have delayed you for so many years, and now, I don't want to delay you any longer. '
"What do you mean by that?" Although Wang Yaxin understood the meaning of Fang Zhiqiang's words, she still didn't want to believe that this time she had been in Mingzhu City for so long, and the two children were there. Bian has been taken care of by Sister Zhang. If it weren't for Fang Zhiqiang, Wang Yaxin might have gone back there long ago.
However, after struggling for so long and waiting for so long, in the end it was just a sentence like this?
Although this was the answer Wang Yaxin had expected, she still couldn't believe it.
"Yaxin, I am already thirty-one years old this year. Love is no longer necessary for me. It can even be said that my heart no longer knows how to let go. I love someone, don’t you understand what I mean?”
Fang Zhiqiang finally raised his head, he looked at Wang Yaxin with tangled and anxious eyes, and spoke word by word.
Fang Zhiqiang himself didn’t realize when he lost the ability to love someone. He once had that heart-pounding feeling, and was willing to give up all his energy for someone. Son, it no longer exists now. Even if he seems to love someone very much on the surface, Fang Zhiqiang knows that it is just the rationality in his heart that keeps reminding him what he should do.
But that is definitely not love.
Wang Yaxin stared into Fang Zhiqiang’s eyes, as if trying to find the answer she wanted from Fang Zhiqiang’s eyes.
Fang Zhiqiang did not avoid it. He felt that he was more upright than ever before, especially in front of Wang Yaxin. At this moment, he really showed all of himself to Wang Yaxin.
“Yaxin, to be honest, I still can’t tell youHow do I feel about you? But if we get together, I firmly believe that I will be good to you, but I have to admit that that is not love. Maybe it's because of guilt, maybe it's because of commitment, or maybe it's because of debt. In short, it's not because of love. ”
Under Wang Yaxin’s unblinking gaze, Fang Zhiqiang said these words again. Wang Yaxin’s eyes finally began to dodge, but the two streams of clear tears that kept spinning in his eyes still could not be avoided. Fang Zhiqiang's eyes.
Fang Zhiqiang slowly took out two pieces from the table, handed them to Wang Yaxin, and said again: "So, the choice is still in your hands, no matter what you make No matter what choice you make, I will agree and support you. ”
Wang Yaxin took the cup from Fang Zhiqiang’s hand and wiped her tears. The light in front of her eyes became a little blurry. Wang Yaxin felt that everything she saw at the moment was blurry, as if she was herself. The relationship with Fang Zhiqiang is as vague as the relationship.
There are countless people in this world, but each one has a completely different soul. Wang Yaxin knows that the person she is loyal to is not Fang Zhiqiang, but The soul hidden in his human body.
Perhaps, there will be two people who look very similar, but there are absolutely no two similar souls. Each person's soul is unique .
Just like Fang Zhiqiang, in life, he may be a sloppy, lazy, indecisive man, but such a man hides a soul with magical power. As long as you dare Get close to it, and it's like it has infinite magic power, pulling you tightly to it. No matter how you try to break away, you can't break away from its shackles.
Wang Yaxin knows this feeling, In the past, books said that this was a matter of personality charm, but now, Wang Yaxin doesn't think so at all. She thinks that Fang Zhiqiang is a huge black hole. As long as you get close to him, it will be difficult to get away. < br />
Even though the words that Fang Zhiqiang just said were enough to hurt his heart, he still couldn’t bear to part with this unique soul that he happened to meet among hundreds of millions of people.
"Actually, you don't have to worry. If you still can't decide, you can go back first. The two children are still waiting for you to take care of them. "
Looking at Wang Yaxin who lowered his head and silently wiped away tears, Fang Zhiqiang slowly spoke again and said this.
Wang Yaxin finally raised his head and glanced at him.
Perhaps in the eyes of many people, this 'hateful' man is a completely irresponsible scumbag who is irresponsible for what he says. Is proposing a child's play? He said it to himself so easily Come out, but now, you have to drive yourself away? Haha!
But in fact, precisely because Wang Yaxin knew Fang Zhiqiang so well, she kept telling herself deep down in her heart that Fang Zhiqiang was not irresponsible, he was just too responsible, and that was why he was so indecisive. Unlike other scumbag men who say love words to make women happy and make women obey him, he always says hurtful words, but the more he does this, the more helpless he becomes to him. Extricate yourself.
Wang Yaxin didn’t know what evil she had done in her previous life to end up in such trouble that she couldn’t get rid of.
“You said everything, but I became the irresponsible person, right?”
Wang Yaxin sorted out her emotions and looked at The makeup was already a little smudged, but she didn't care at the moment, staring straight at Fang Zhiqiang, forcing a smile on her face, and said.
"Yaxin, I..."
"Pa!"
Suddenly, Wang Yaxin stood up suddenly, raised her hand and clenched the hand on the table The coffee cup slammed into Fang Zhiqiang's face!
When Fang Zhiqiang reacted, the still steaming coffee had already spilled on Fang Zhiqiang’s face.
A hot feeling made Fang Zhiqiang close his eyes tightly, rub his eyes quickly with his palms, and finally reluctantly opened his eyes, but he saw Wang Yaxin standing in front of him at this moment, she There was a faint smile on her cheek, her eyes were staring at herself like a cold goddess, and she said softly: "If I didn't know you, or didn't know you as well as I do now, I would definitely let you die a miserable death! "
Fang Zhiqiang was stunned. He didn't know what Wang Yaxin meant by this.
Looking at Wang Yaxin’s back that turned away, Fang Zhiqiang didn’t react for a long time. The coffee on his face dropped drop by drop on the back of his hand, and Fang Zhiqiang came back to his senses.
How could he understand a woman’s thoughts?
Wang Yaxin pretended to leave chicly, but just to cover up her inner unwillingness and loneliness.
After persisting for so long, waiting for so long, and finally waiting for such a result, to be honest, Wang Yaxin was unwilling to give in, but there was nothing he could do about it. This road seemed to have reached a dead end, no matter how hard he tried It seems impossible to go out.
Wang Yaxin doesn’t know what kind of role she is in Fang Zhiqiang’s heart. Every time there are problems in his relationship with Li Xiaoxiao, she always seems to be by his side. It is precisely because of this, She witnessed their relationship go from being inseparable at the beginning to finally parting ways. It is precisely because of this that Wang Yaxin has a deeper understanding of Fang Zhiqiang's treatment of relationships.What kind of attitude is it.
Recalling Fang Zhiqiang’s expression when he proposed to her, Wang Yaxin even felt a little sympathetic to him.
Even if no one in the world understands Fang Zhiqiang, and everyone thinks he is a scumbag, it is impossible for Wang Yaxin not to understand him, because Wang Yaxin can feel the grief and desire of Fang Zhiqiang at that time. Absolute mood.
How can a person be rational under great compassion?
And it was under such circumstances that Fang Zhiqiang proposed to himself, and for what reason? He doesn't love himself.
Is it just to show Li Xiaoxiao?
Fang Zhiqiang is obviously not that kind of person. He will not waste time and energy on things that are meaningless and useless.
What’s that for? In order to repay what you have given him for so long?
Haha, do you regard yourself as a beggar begging for love? !