Finally, the door opened, but Li Xiaoxiao's expression surprised Bi Luochun. There was a smile on her face, but the smile seemed expressionless. Bi Luochun could naturally see that now Li Xiaoxiao has completely closed herself off. It seems that nothing can arouse the slightest interest in her or make her mood fluctuate. However, Bi Luochun will not give up so easily. Since Li Xiaoxiao Opening the door means that he still has a chance. Since Fang Zhiqiang is so anxious to let himself handle this matter, it naturally means that the matter is serious. Even if he cannot solve it in the end, he must do his best.
"What's wrong with you?" After Li Xiaoxiao opened the door, she was about to turn around and walk into the bedroom again, but when she noticed that Bi Luochun was walking with a slight limp, she immediately turned her head Come, look at Bi Luochun seriously, and ask.
Her seemingly caring greetings, but in Bi Luochun's view, she doesn't care about it at all now. Otherwise, how could she have stayed at home for so long otherwise Fang Zhiqiang was so injured? But take a look? After knowing what Li Xiaoxiao was thinking, Bi Luochun immediately said: "Qiangzi's injuries are several times more serious than mine. Now, let alone walking, he can maintain a clear consciousness in the hospital bed and follow It is already very difficult to communicate with people."
After Bi Luochun finished speaking, the original look of worry on Li Xiaoxiao's face immediately dissipated, and then was replaced by a look of worry. Instead of a smile that looked expressionless, she said casually: "If you are sick, just go to the hospital for treatment. Why are you running around?" After saying that, she continued to walk towards Xiao Aili's walker. Next to him, he carefully held Xiao Ai Li's walker, with a smile on his face again, and said: "Little baby, when will you grow up?"
"Li Xiaoxiao , do you really plan to continue like this? You know very well in your heart that no one has sorry for you, why do you have to make things difficult for yourself?" Bi Luochun looked at Li Xiaoxiao like this, and finally couldn't help it. Maybe Li Xiaoxiao couldn't He knows what the truth is, but Fang Zhiqiang has told Bi Luochun everything. Bi Luochun now knows very well that Fang Zhiqiang has never done anything to regret Li Xiaoxiao, at least, after saying When he said this, Bi Luochun felt confident in his heart, and he wanted to use this to make Li Xiaoxiao curious about what he was going to say next.
But Bi Luochun was disappointed again. After hearing Bi Luochun's words, Li Xiaoxiao had no emotional feedback at all. She didn't even look at Bi Luochun and continued to stare at Xiao Ai intently. Li said casually: "I have no control over other people. As long as my precious son can be worthy of me in the future, I will be satisfied, right?"
"Xiaoxiao, you really don't have anything. Understand, it was actually Yaxin who was raped by someone else that night..."
"Old Bi, if you are here just to explain this matter, then you can leave." Finally, Li Xiaoxiao took back the smile on her face, but still did not look at Bi Luochun. But her tone of voice sounded quite serious. After she finished speaking, that familiar smile appeared on her face again, as if everything around her had nothing to do with her.
"Why? Why don't you even give him a chance to explain? I don't understand. You obviously love him so much, why do you torture him so much? Can't you just be together? Do you want to live together?" Bi Luochun really didn't understand. Even if he didn't know everything about the relationship between Li Xiaoxiao and Fang Zhiqiang, at least he knew a little more than others. The two people clearly pretended to be each other in their hearts. But why, they just can't go together. Every time they encounter something, the two of them never want to go together. Sometimes, as a bystander, Bi Luochun becomes anxious, but as authorities, they But he still pretended as if nothing happened. This was what Bi Luochun couldn't stand.
Perhaps it is precisely because of this that Bi Luochun finally chose Liu Yan. It may also be because of Liu Yan’s character that made Bi Luochun feel so happy. Perhaps in life There will be a lot of reasons and time for bickering, but for Bi Luochun, that is better than keeping everything in his heart. Li Xiaoxiao's current state is completely incomprehensible in Bi Luochun's eyes. Even if Li Xiaoxiao refuses to say a word of what is in her heart, she refuses to even give the other party a chance to explain. Bi Luochun knows what she is thinking It was uncomfortable, but had Li Xiaoxiao ever thought about how much psychological pressure her silence and cold violence would put on the other party? How much will it break the other person's spirit?
"Lao Bi, I haven't asked too much about the matter between you and Sister Liu Yan, because I know that it is difficult for an upright official to deal with family affairs. This has been the same since ancient times. If you think that everything will happen. If it's right or wrong, then I can only tell you that you are wrong. Many times, what we argue is not who is right or wrong. No one can explain such complex things as feelings, and I can't understand it myself. So, It's better not to think about it." Li Xiaoxiao sighed slightly. She gave up on Fang Zhiqiang. Fang Zhiqiang didn't say a word, but seeing Bi Luochun so anxious, she naturally knew that Bi Luochun was doing it for herself and Fang Zhiqiang. Emotions are like this, so she still gave Bi Luochun an explanation.
"What can't you understand? When you like someone, don't you just want to be by his side all the time? Do you still need to think about such a simple thing?" Bi Luochun frowned. Wrinkling, he still couldn't understand what Li Xiaoxiao just said. For Bi Luochun, everything is very simple. Follow your inner thoughts. No matter what you encounter, be true to your heart. Only by doing what you want to do can you feel happy, Li Xiaoxiao is so complexBi Luochun couldn't understand such complicated thoughts at all, and he had never experienced them before.
"You don't understand, Lao Bi, thank you for coming to me, but unfortunately, I don't know how to explain it to you even if I can't understand it myself, so, too Please tell Fang Zhiqiang that if one day I figure it out, maybe I will come back to find him, but we can never go back to the past." The 'past' Li Xiaoxiao said at this time may refer to them When they first met, or perhaps referring to now, Bi Luochun was a little confused for a while. He didn't know why Li Xiaoxiao had such complicated thoughts, let alone what it meant for Li Xiaoxiao. I want to understand.
"Xiaoxiao, I think the most regretful thing in life is not missing such a good person, but missing the person who wants to be nice to you the most." Listening to Li Xiaoxiao's words , Bi Luochun already felt a little powerless. Facing Li Xiaoxiao like this, even if Bi Luochun had a lot to say, no matter how shocking the truth about Fang Zhiqiang's incident was, Bi Luochun felt that he could not persuade Li Xiaoxiao at all. , because what she is thinking about now is not the matter itself, but the complicated thing called feelings. Bi Luochun also knows that feelings are complicated, so just don’t think deeply about it, but just live the present moment well, right? But Li Xiaoxiao obviously didn’t think so.
"I know." Li Xiaoxiao smiled slightly again. Li Xiaoxiao naturally understood what Bi Luochun just said, and then she continued: "But what I am struggling with now is not who can treat me. A good question, but how should I be a better person."
After Li Xiaoxiao finished speaking, she looked directly at Bi Luochun, and there seemed to be a questioning look in her eyes. There seems to be a trace of doubt. Obviously, she wants to make herself better and better, but she has never been able to find a way. She has been spinning in circles and has never known how to improve herself, especially in terms of relationships. She does not want to let herself go deep. She was stuck in it, like a resentful woman in the palace, so sentimental. She tried to change herself countless times, but she couldn't find a way. Now she figured it out, maybe it was because Fang Zhiqiang was so good to her. , the good thing is that you have adapted to this rhythm of life and to the life with him. If you want to jump out of it, maybe you can only figure out how to make yourself become better when you are alone. better.
Bi Luochun fell silent. He couldn't help but recall the Li Xiaoxiao back then. He had just met that Li Xiaoxiao for only three or four years. Bi Luochun didn't fully know. Li Xiaoxiao's experience, but he could see that Li Xiaoxiao had completely changed a person. She had become so deep. The seemingly carefree girl before was gone forever and never appeared again. However, the current Li Xiaoxiao made Bi Luochun feel strange.
"Do you think I have changed? You don't even recognize me anymore?" Li Xiaoxiao looked at Bi LuochunWith a dull expression on his face, he took the initiative to say this. Seeing that Bi Luochun still looked dull, Li Xiaoxiao smiled again and then said: "The only constant in the world is change. What is changing is not only I, and you, also have hadrons, don't we?"
Bi Luochun did not object to Li Xiaoxiao's words, not to mention other things for the time being, just because of Fang Zhiqiang's current status and status, and In terms of money, great changes have taken place from before. Bi Luochun knew that the changes Li Xiaoxiao mentioned were of course not only these, but these are also very important factors that allow a person to change his character. With these things , it is difficult for people to remain unchanged. At least Bi Luochun asked himself that he could no longer find his original self.
At that time, I could squeeze into a rental house with Liu Yan that was less than 30 square meters, and could even accommodate Fang Zhiqiang. But at that time, it seemed that they could easily If you can be happy, there are many things in a day that can make you smile from ear to ear.
But now, Bi Luochun can't imagine how he would feel if he were allowed to go back to his original life, to that room of less than thirty square meters, but he knew , if I really go back, I may be frowning all day long and never show the slightest smile again.
"Then... how do I reply to Qiangzi?" Bi Luochun has realized that instead of persuading Li Xiaoxiao, he was speechless by Li Xiaoxiao, although he did not want to accept this result, but Bi Luochun had to admit that he lost to Li Xiaoxiao in the end. The purpose of asking this question was also to be able to communicate with Fang Zhiqiang when he went back. At least it showed that he had indeed worked hard, but in the end , still failed to change Li Xiaoxiao’s mind.
“Tell him, it’s not him who did anything wrong, but me. I will work hard to find what I really want in my heart. If I can find the answer, I may come back. Looking for him, of course, if he can be happy for the rest of his life, I won't bother him anymore." Li Xiaoxiao pondered for a moment, then looked at Bi Luochun seriously and said this.
"You... want to leave Qiangzi?" Bi Luochun was a little unbelievable. Even if there were some unresolved knots in his heart, there was no need to say it so seriously, right? What Li Xiaoxiao just said sounded like he was leaving Fang Zhiqiang completely, which once again surprised Bi Luochun.
However, when Li Xiaoxiao heard this, he did not answer Bi Luochun again. Instead, he turned his head again, looked at Little Ai Li in the walker, and continued to amuse the child.
Bi Luochun looked at Li Xiaoxiao's figure carrying him, opened his mouth, but did not make any sound again, turned around, and walked away from the bedroom door.