Seeing Fang Zhiqiang staring at her motionless, Wang Yaxin could naturally see that her answer was clearly unable to cope with him. After pondering for a long time, Wang Yaxin had no choice but to say again: "Isn't this kind of thing dependent on fate? No matter how anxious I am, I can't just go to the street and marry someone, right?"
"I don't mean to rush you, I just want you to know that you are also We really need a family, and continuing like this is not an option. Don't people often say that a new love is the last way to forget the old love?" Fang Zhiqiang said in a very serious tone.
"Do you think I haven't forgotten you yet?" Wang Yaxin suddenly looked at Fang Zhiqiang in surprise, said this in a surprised tone, and looked at Fang Zhiqiang's every expression and action.
"But have you forgotten, this is no longer important. Only when we are both well, can we both be relieved in our hearts, right?" Fang Zhiqiang continued to speak seriously.
Wang Yaxin couldn't help but be stunned. She knew what Fang Zhiqiang meant. When he saw her in this state, he felt uneasy, as if everything about his current life situation was... It was all caused by him, and he felt guilty and uneasy.
"Don't worry, I chose the path myself. I am able to bear the consequences. As long as you can live happily." Wang Yaxin sighed with a smile.
"Why are you so stubborn? Even if you don't think about me, you should at least think about Xiaoyu and Xinsheng? Do you really plan to bring them together for the rest of your life?" Fang Zhiqiang pondered for a moment, He also said helplessly.
"It's good. Now Xiaoyu has said it. He thinks it's good. At least it's much better than watching me sad every day. As for Xin Sheng, as long as I can always be with her By my side, when she grows up and gets married, I won't have to worry about it." Wang Yaxin said disapprovingly.
"That's not what I'm talking about." Fang Zhiqiang said without hesitation, "If you don't have a family, you will get older and your health will get worse, so you really plan to let your two children bear the burden. Everything? Won’t they have pressure? Won’t they have complaints?”
Wang Yaxin was stunned again by these words. She has always been so rational, and this was also true for her late at night. I have thought about it, but at that time, I had no idea how far away I was from old age. By the time I got there, my two children would have already started a family and started a business. It would be a big deal for me to find a nursing home and not put any pressure on my children. Just fine.
But now, Wang Yaxin knows about her sequelae, and realizes that old age is approaching her quietly. Maybe ten years from now, she may need someone to take care of her daily life. Take care of it.
But the future is still so long, should we continue to live in this state? When Wang Yaxin thought of this, the corner of her mouth could not help but tremble slightly.
"I know your temper. At worst, you can find a nursing home to live in by yourself and don't bother the children. Not to mention whether you are used to living there yourself. Even if you are used to it, the children will feel guilty. Are you going? Can they really put you in a nursing home and ignore you?" Fang Zhiqiang continued.
"It happened a long time ago. It's useless to think about it now. Just live the present moment." Wang Yaxin's emotions seemed to be out of control. She said this expressionlessly, as if He didn't want his inner emotions to be seen by Fang Zhiqiang.
"Actually, you know very well that this is not the way to go. If you want to be a person without desires, you will implicate many people." Fang Zhiqiang continued to stare at Wang Yaxin and said word by word. .
"I don’t care what you think now. There is still a long way to go after the two children. Do you really think you can take good care of them by yourself? After all, you are not You grew up there, and you are not familiar with many situations there. When the time comes when the children need their parents to come forward to solve some things, what will you do if you can't do it by yourself?" Fang Zhiqiang said, speaking. The speed is getting faster and faster. Wang Yaxin keeps going alone like this. He wants to speak many times, but every time he persuades him, it has no effect. Wang Yaxin seems to be completely unable to listen.
This time, before speaking, Fang Zhiqiang also thought for a long time. What could make Wang Yaxin clearly realize that it was impossible for her to continue in her current state?
After listening to Fang Zhiqiang’s words, Wang Yaxin’s emotions finally gradually collapsed. She then raised her head again, looked at Fang Zhiqiang, and said with a blank look: "Then what should you tell me? I should persist. Should I do what I think I should do? Should I take back everything that once belonged to me? Xinsheng is your biological daughter. If I want to give her the best childhood, should I win you back?"
Fang Zhiqiang was stunned.
Looking at Wang Yaxin’s rapid breathing, Fang Zhiqiang didn’t know how to answer.
"All of you think that I have been single all this time just to be angry and that I have not gotten out of the shadow of my past. But have any of you ever thought about what I am really thinking? Give your children a happy life. Why don't I want to give them a warm family? Why don't I want to give them a warm family? But Qiangzi, not all men in this world are good men, and not all men can give us a warm family."
"If I find another person, neither Xin Sheng nor Xiao Yu is his biological father. Even if he is good to the children, he is not his biological father after all. Haven't you ever been worried?, will the children be alienated from her? At that time, the original good intentions will actually make things worse. The children could grow up happily and worry-free. The stepfather may make them feel that the family is more complete, or it may make them feel that the family has been broken up! "
"I once asked Xiaoyu, and now Xiaoyu is very sensible. He said that it is fine to follow my own wishes. He will not interfere with my decision. No matter who the man is, he will do it. I won’t say much, and I will try my best to get along with him, but when I heard this, how did I feel? "
As Wang Yaxin spoke, her eyes began to get slightly moist. Although she was so excited, she still restrained her speaking voice and did not disturb the people around her.
“Fang Zhiqiang, do you understand women? Women are not just there to give birth to children, they also become mothers and watch their children grow up day by day. I gave birth to Xin Sheng, and you can ignore it. You think that as long as I can raise her, it will be fine. But have you ever thought about how anxious I am at night when my child has a cold and fever? Have you ever thought about how devastated I felt when I saw that other people’s children had a happy family of origin, but Xinsheng only had me as her mother? Have you ever thought about how despairing it is to watch your own children unable to go to school and have to watch other people's children receive education one by one? "
"Stop talking. "Fang Zhiqiang stretched out his hand to signal Wang Yaxin to stop.
However, Wang Yaxin's emotions have begun to overflow, and it is obviously not that easy to stop again.
"You said it so easily. You asked me to quickly find another one, just the Jiang Bing from before. I've been with him for so long, can't I see that he treats me well? But every time he comes to my house, Xiaoyu always avoids him subconsciously. Even if we meet, he can't say a few words. Seeing the child's fake smile, do you know how uncomfortable my heart is? ? "
"Now you say that my child has considered it? The children have always been by my side and are inseparable from me. I know every emotion they have. If it weren't for them to grow up healthily, why would I have been alone all this time? Jiang Bing and I have been in a fake marriage for so long, and Xiaoyu and he have never had a dispute, but do you think this is a good thing? After all, Xiaoyu is still a teenager, and he can't fake many emotions. Every time he faces Jiang Bing, I can clearly see his reserve and disguise. Do you think, even if Jiang Bing and I really If you get married, will your life be better in the future? Can Xiaoyu be happy? "
After Wang Yaxin finished speaking, looking at Fang Zhiqiang's silence, he laughed at himself again, and then said: "I said, maybe I am destined to be a lonely woman all my life, but at least , and two children accompanying me, I should always be content. "
"Yaxin...I know it's difficult for you..."
"You don't know! I am oblivious! "Wang Yaxin suddenly interrupted Fang Zhiqiang's words. This time, her voice finally became a little higher due to excitement, and the people around her also cast doubtful glances.
Noticing the looks of the people around her , Wang Yaxin lowered her voice again and continued: "When I left before, I thought that as long as I could watch you become happier and happier, that would be enough. You did not disappoint me. Although you and Xiaoxiao occasionally have minor conflicts, your life is happy enough in my eyes. However, when you are happy, how could you possibly think about the sadness and grievance a woman like me would feel in your heart? "
"It's not your fault, you don't have the time and energy to think about it, and you haven't seen with your own eyes what I have gone through, so you can't possibly know. ”
After the words fell, the two people fell silent again. At this moment, Fang Zhiqiang didn’t know what he should say. He knew this truth: when things happen to others, he is always of no use. After that, go and persuade her, because it is not your own business.
"Perhaps, in your heart, a mature and rational woman like me will never have an emotional breakdown, right? There will never be a time when I feel like crying, nor a time when I feel hopeless and helpless. "Wang Yaxin looked at the silent Fang Zhiqiang. After pondering for a moment, he asked again.
Hearing this, Fang Zhiqiang couldn't help but raised his head and glanced at Wang Yaxin. At this moment, Wang Yaxin looked tired. Fang Zhiqiang opened his mouth, but still didn't make a sound.
"I'm sorry, I didn't control my emotions. "
Suddenly, Wang Yaxin quickly dealt with her emotions, wiped her wet eyes with a tissue, then looked at Fang Zhiqiang again, and said with a smile.
Seeing Wang Yaxin's mood change so quickly, Fang Zhiqiang was stunned again. How many unknown secrets and bitterness does she, a woman who is good at hiding her emotions, hide in her heart?
"This is I choose the path. No matter how hard it is, I should bear it alone. I shouldn't complain to you. Don't take it to heart. After a while, I will be fine on my own. ”
Wang Yaxin’s mood has returned to normal at this moment. She always looked at Fang Zhiqiang with a smile and said these words calmly.
However, Fang Zhiqiang Qiang couldn't calm down at this time.
What Wang Yaxin said was right. Fang Zhiqiang has never had the time and energy to think about how difficult Wang Yaxin's life is now. Wang Yaxin just said In those few examples, Fang Zhiqiang hasI find it incredible, not to mention that there are countless examples that Fang Zhiqiang is unaware of.
But now, having developed to this point, Fang Zhiqiang also knew that there was nothing he could do. Looking at Wang Yaxin’s skilled smile, Fang Zhiqiang was at a loss.