As for Li Xiaoxiao's personal thoughts, Li Yonggui and others had no idea. At this moment, only Xiao Ai Li was in the same room with her. In this silent night, she looked at Xiao Ai Li sleeping soundly, but she couldn't help herself anyway. Can't sleep.
Sometimes, when she thinks about Xiao Aili, she seems to feel that there is nothing that cannot be solved. As long as Xiao Aili is always by her side, there will be no more problems in this world. There are other things that can make you unhappy.
However, Li Xiaoxiao, who once had such thoughts, can never return to the same state no matter what. It seems that for her now, she wants a lot of things, but if she thinks about it carefully, When I think about it, it's not much, I just hope that he can stay with me well.
It is such a simple idea, but it seems so difficult to realize.
When Fang Zhiqiang arrived home, everyone had almost fallen asleep.
Li Xiaoxiao in the room heard a knock on the door and immediately walked to the door. However, before opening the bedroom door, she heard her mother’s voice outside shouting: “It’s Zhiqiang, right? ?”
“It’s me, Mom.”
After hearing such a conversation, Li Xiaoxiao did not continue to walk out, but quietly returned again. On the bed, she suddenly became nervous at this moment. After waiting for so long, Fang Zhiqiang finally came back, but she was a little at a loss.
She didn’t want Fang Zhiqiang to see her inner thoughts, but she was nervous and didn’t know what she should do to make herself look like normal.
At this moment, Fang Zhiqiang had already walked into the room.
"Mom, are you still awake at this late hour?" Fang Zhiqiang's unclear voice came again, making Li Xiaoxiao couldn't help but crawl into bed.
"You haven't come back so late, I can't sleep at all." Xiao's mother said without hesitation.
After the two people talked for a while, Fang Zhiqiang walked towards the bedroom. At this time, Li Xiaoxiao quickly closed her eyes because she didn’t know what she should tell Fang Zhiqiang. Something, because she was worried that Fang Zhiqiang would notice something was wrong if she opened her mouth, so she simply pretended to be asleep and kept silent.
Fang Zhiqiang gently opened the door and walked in slowly. At this moment, Li Xiaoxiao also closed her eyes tightly, listening to Fang Zhiqiang’s footsteps getting closer and closer. , Li Xiaoxiao seemed to be able to hear Fang Zhiqiang's breathing getting closer and closer, but her eyes closed tighter and tighter.
When Fang Zhiqiang walked to the bed and saw that Li Xiaoxiao was still motionless, he immediately thought that she was asleep, so Fang ZhiqiangQiang didn't turn on the light, quietly changed his shoes, and went to the bathroom to wash up.
Li Xiaoxiao opened his eyes again and looked at the time. It was already past twelve o'clock.
Li Xiaoxiao is usually a person whose biological clock is very punctual. Perhaps because she has been doing nothing at home, around nine o'clock every night is the time for her to go to bed.
However, she has not fallen asleep today. In fact, she has been unable to sleep many times before because she was worried about Fang Zhiqiang's safety, and even couldn't sleep all night. But tonight she is It was clear that I couldn't sleep tonight not because I was worried about Fang Zhiqiang's safety, but because I just heard Wang Yaxin's voice on Fang Zhiqiang's cell phone.
After all, it was already past eleven o'clock in the middle of the night. Even though they had a working relationship, it was a bit abnormal to work so late.
But although Li Xiaoxiao thought so in his heart, he couldn't say it out loud. This was still the same problem as before. It seemed that if he said such words by himself, he would not be generous enough, or even a little bit. They are small-minded and do not understand each other well enough.
But if he didn’t say anything, Li Xiaoxiao would indeed feel very uncomfortable, as if there were ten thousand insects crawling on the apex of his heart, gnawing at his heart over and over again.
Li Xiaoxiao, who was thinking wildly, kept the same posture, motionless, but kept his eyes open. Looking at the pitch black in front of him, Li Xiaoxiao listened carefully to the sound in the bathroom. movement.
After a while, Fang Zhiqiang had finished washing. When he walked to the bedroom again, he was still cautious, fearing to make the slightest sound.
At this time, Li Xiaoxiao also quickly closed her eyes again, still maintaining the same posture and never moving.
Fang Zhiqiang tiptoed into the bedroom again and looked at Li Xiaoxiao who was already quietly crawling on the bed. He was careful not to make any noise, walked to the other side of the bed, and with the help of the weak light , glanced at Li Xiaoxiao's quiet face and little Ai Li in the crib, then with a slight smile on his face, he slowly went to bed.
When entering the bed, Fang Zhiqiang was still cautious, fearing to disturb Li Xiaoxiao who was already asleep.
Li Xiaoxiao felt extremely uncomfortable at the moment. Her body, which had not moved for so long, seemed to be completely stiff. However, every time she wanted to turn over, she thought of herself. You have persisted for so long, wouldn’t it be a waste of all your efforts to turn around at this time?
As soon as she thought of this, she persisted.
And Fang Zhiqiang also felt that something was wrong tonight. Even if Li Xiaoxiao was sleepy, she had already said that she would be back soon. Why did she fall asleep so quickly?
Moreover, she usually does not sleep so deeply, especially when she comes back late at night, she is easily woken up by herself.
Although he felt something was wrong in his heart, Fang Zhiqiang could only hold on to his doubts and try his best to fall asleep. After all, it was really wrong to disturb Li Xiaoxiao at this time.
As time goes by, Li Xiaoxiao’s body becomes more and more uncomfortable. It doesn’t matter if he really falls asleep. Even if he doesn’t turn over all night, it doesn’t matter. But the most uncomfortable thing is It is in this state of pretending to be asleep that even the breathing must be deliberately kept steady, for fear that it will be fast and slow, so that the other party will notice that one is not asleep, and even one's eyelashes must be deliberately kept still.
This feeling made Li Xiaoxiao more and more uncomfortable, and Fang Zhiqiang had been lying down for some time at this time.
Fang Zhiqiang seemed to be restraining himself. After lying down for so long, there was still no movement, as if he had really fallen asleep.
But at this moment, Li Xiaoxiao finally couldn't bear it any longer. He deliberately took a long breath and turned over as if he had woken up.
The moment Li Xiaoxiao turned over, Fang Zhiqiang suddenly spoke: "Are you awake?"
Hearing Fang Zhiqiang's voice, Li Xiaoxiao's body suddenly She was stunned, and then fell silent again, but her eyes were already wide open at this moment, and she realized at this moment that Fang Zhiqiang was not asleep at all, but had been paying attention to her movements.
"Ah..." Helpless Li Xiaoxiao could only say "Ah" casually.
"Did you wake up, or have you not fallen asleep all the time?" Fang Zhiqiang continued to ask.
"I've had a good sleep..." Li Xiaoxiao deliberately rubbed his eyes and said in a lazy tone.
"I have been sleeping with you for so long, do you think you can deceive me?" Fang Zhiqiang said without mercy.
These words indeed made Li Xiaoxiao fall silent again. What Fang Zhiqiang said made sense. She could have seen through her simple act of pretending to sleep just now, let alone sleeping with her like this. Fang Zhiqiang became stronger after a long time.
"I'm confused. I don't know if I'm asleep or not." Li Xiaoxiao didn't intend to continue to deceive herself, but if she said at this time that she wasn't asleep at all, she would It seemed a little hard to get off the stage, so I just said this.
“Is there any place for me?What did Fang do to make you unhappy? "When Li Xiaoxiao said this, Fang Zhiqiang naturally understood what she meant, and immediately said straight to the point.
"Why do you think so? "Li Xiaoxiao asked in a confused tone.
"If not, why do you treat me like this? "Fang Zhiqiang continued to wonder.
"I'm not doing well, am I fine? "Li Xiaoxiao said still disapprovingly.
"Xiaoxiao, I remember I told you that there should be no secrets between the two of us, nor should we hide anything from each other. Said, this is just to make our relationship better. ”
Fang Zhiqiang still said to the point.
Fang Zhiqiang didn’t like this feeling of mutual guessing, especially after returning home after a busy day in the group , and you have to guess what the other person is thinking. What did you do wrong? Why is the other person unhappy?
Fang Zhiqiang knows where his weaknesses are. He is not a person with high emotional intelligence to begin with. Fang Zhiqiang is not good at women's thoughts.
"Maybe it's better to bury some things in your heart than to say them out. I do this to make the relationship between the two of us stronger. That's all. ”
Having said this, neither of the two people planned to hide it anymore. Li Xiaoxiao also spoke without hesitation.
After listening to Li Xiaoxiao Fang Zhiqiang was stunned and speechless for a while.
During this period of time, Fang Zhiqiang has clearly felt the changes in Li Xiaoxiao, feeling that her heart seems to be more sensitive, many Things that didn't matter to her at first are now extremely important to her, and now she is increasingly unable to figure out her thoughts.
Fang Zhiqiang doesn't know if this is good or bad. If you think about it from a good place, maybe Li Xiaoxiao is doing this to make the relationship between the two people better. Just like what she said, it is better not to say some things.
But If you think about it in the worst light, isn’t it that the distance and gap between two people is widened by these trivial daily things?
Fang Zhiqiang doesn’t know the answer, and he can’t think of it at all. He understood what was going on, but he still wanted to tell Li Xiaoxiao what he was thinking: "Xiaoxiao, sometimes I am so stupid that I don't even notice that I have done something wrong. If you feel uncomfortable, I hope You can remind me, at least let me know how I need to correct it in the future. "
"No, it has nothing to do with you, you don't have to think too much. "Li Xiaoxiao said without hesitation.
"Since it has nothing to do with me, you should tell me what makes you unhappy?" Fang Zhiqiang continued to ask.
"Why do you have to ask? Didn't I already tell you? Even if I tell you, it will have no effect. It will only increase worries." Li Xiaoxiao seemed to be a little impatient and said this As she spoke, her tone sounded obviously different from before.