My wonderful wife!
Chapter 1314 (Extra) I love you, goodbye
(This is a letter Xiaoxia sent to Qiangzi before her marriage)
Qiangzi, before the most important moment in life comes, I want to write you a letter.
When I wrote this letter, it was actually the most nervous and busy moment for me. Because I am about to face a major turning point in my life, because tomorrow I will put on a flower crown and the wedding dress he designed for me. With everyone’s gaze and blessings, I will walk in front of him and wait for him to hold my hand. , becoming his favorite bride.
Even I still have the opportunity to re-experience the most pure and beautiful youth time, and the subsequent ups and downs, and the love that reunited after separation. Yes, you gave me a wedding, far away It far exceeded my expectations for a wedding in my life. It was so beautiful that I felt that getting married was worth it even just for this wedding.
However, the irony is that such a wedding has nothing to do with you. You can only appear as a spectator, a witness. I don’t know what you will feel when I walk by you in my wedding dress, or whether you will have a little bit of regret. It’s a pity that I can only pass by you in the end, when I am the most beautiful. At this moment, we have become each other's passers-by in the form of passing by each other. Even the time when I pass by you will not be even one second longer than the time when I pass by other guests.
In the eyes of everyone, I should be envied, because I have a person who loves me the most, an almost legendary love that finally blossomed and bore fruit, and a person who makes the whole world happy. We envy, envy, and hate the most romantic wedding that best reflects our love. For many women, this is enough and they should be content.
I think I should actually be satisfied, and I will be moved to tears by my happiness at the moment. But even at this moment, when I think about what I have lost, I still feel that life is about There is never a word like perfection, especially for me.
It was already late at night, but I still couldn’t sleep. I knew I should go to bed early and become the most beautiful bride tomorrow, but I was at a loss and couldn't fall asleep. They laughed at me and said that I was overwhelmed with happiness and excitement just before the wedding. Only I knew that my mood at the moment was actually very complicated.
So, writing to you has become what I must do at this moment. Because new happiness is about to unfold, and old relationships must be ended.
When I wrote this letter to you, I didn’t actually think about giving it to you. You will never see this letter in this life. You don't know that there was once a person who loved you in this world and left you such a message. Therefore, this letter actually has no meaning. It seems that many things, especially feelings, cannot be explained.What's the point of coming? But I did it anyway. I am a businessman, and everything I do and every bit of effort I put in must be fruitful and allow me to see benefits. Only in the matter of loving you, I know that there will be no result, but I still insist on it.
There are just some words that I cannot say to you again, and it is impossible for me to destroy the happiness of you and Xiaoxiao, as well as me and Yuming. Yuming and you are two completely different people. I know very well that my feelings for him and for you are also two completely different feelings. You make my heart beat. When I am with you, I can feel a heart. I am ready to jump out of my chest anytime and anywhere; but he makes me feel at ease. Every time he hugs me, no matter what the situation is, sad, disappointed, angry or excited, I can calm down in his arms.
Qiangzi, I think I know in my heart why it was Xiaoxiao who was with you in the end, not me. Because I don’t have her passion, her enthusiasm, and I won’t be like her, who only needs love and can give everything for love. I have always told myself that love has never been what I am pursuing, so even if I don't get it, I shouldn't complain. Really, I have bought a lot of luxuries, clothes worth tens of thousands of yuan, bags and necklaces worth hundreds of thousands, but the only real luxury, and what I have never gotten, is love, which allows me to love you openly. The person I love loves me too. At the same time, we can walk together openly and declare our deep love for each other to the whole world.
I looked at my feelings for you with the calmness and rationality of a businessman. In the end, I sadly discovered that this was probably the most disastrous defeat in my life. I invested everything I had. , but the result was a loss of money.
Qiangzi, you are also a businessman. You know, if your business fails, you can start over, but where can you get back the sincerity you gave to you?
Qiangzi, tomorrow is my wedding. For most people, the wedding should be the happiest, most sacred, and most memorable moment in their lives. For me, it may not be the case. The person I marry must be the one who loves me the most in the world. He will spend more than ten years waiting for me and accompanying me in the corner that I can’t see. He will definitely spend the rest of his life giving me commitment and happiness. I believe he can do this. It's like I always knew that you could never do it, or that you couldn't do it for me. Because from the beginning, you were destined not to be my happiness. From Nie Qian at the beginning, to Wang Yaxin, who you love most, to Xiaoxiao, who loves you most, and Huang Wanting, who has been waiting silently behind your back, you have a reason to love them and give them happiness. I am alone and have only one mistake...and mistakes should not be the rope that binds us throughout our lives, especially if such happiness comes at the cost of betrayal and hurting Xiaoxiao, then I will never be able to feel at ease.To enjoy a little happiness, forever and ever, you can only live in deeper pain. Qiangzi, you are passionate and tend to love deeply and sincerely, but you don’t know how to love someone. In the end, everyone who falls in love with you will be hurt.
Since you can’t read this letter, I can tell you everything I want to say here. I love you, even though I don’t know the reason for this feeling. Obviously you are not my type. When we are together, we are always tit-for-tat, and there is almost no time for us to get along harmoniously. But those moments are indeed the happiest, most unbridled, and happiest moments in my life. In front of you, I can show my teeth and show my claws, like a female devil who will bully you to the ground, or I can be an unbridled rogue and unreasonable, relying on you to do anything for me, but the most important thing is that I can In front of you, I truly expose myself. In front of you, I am safe. I can indulge my weakness and helplessness, and collapse in front of you without any scruples. The me in front of you is the real and complete me. So, I fell in love with you...
The day is about to dawn, Qiangzi, this letter, and my feelings for you that I have given but cannot take back, stop here and mark an eternity. period. In the years to come, even without each other's company, we must be happy separately. I will, and you will definitely do it, because those who accompany us are the people who love us the most, so we should all be happy, right? I just hope that when I pass by you at the wedding, we don't look back, just go away...
I love you, goodbye.