"Xiaoxiao, actually I don't know what to say. I'm actually very sorry for you, but no matter what, when it comes to this matter, I don't think I should lie to you anymore, because lying to you makes you feel uncomfortable, so why shouldn't I feel uncomfortable too?" Fang Zhi Qiang sighed and said,

"Yes, I lied to you, and all the words I said were lies to you. I, Fang Zhiqiang, a man of three feet, will never do it even if he dies. I would sell my soul and my dignity for money. I don’t want to say how great I am, I just want to say that I, Fang Zhiqiang, am not that shameless. Getting along with you, Li Xiaoxiao, from your accident At first, I never thought that I would have anything to do with you. I am born with such a personality. I don’t want to see others in trouble, and it is difficult for me to stay out of it. Sometimes people call me stupid, but that’s how I am born. , I can’t change even if I want to. You had a car accident and I went to save you. In fact, it’s not a rescue. At most, it can only be regarded as a rescue. Even if I don’t pull you, the police who arrive later will save you. Yes, I really didn’t think that much at the time. I just thought it was a very common thing. You were saved, the police came, the ambulance came, and I left. I later forgot about this. Something happened, but I didn't expect that you would always remember it, and you would try your best to find me to repay your kindness. What happened next was a bit dramatic. From the beginning, I thought that although you are a pretty girl, you are a little crazy when you do things. However, after getting along with each other slowly, I found that you are a very good girl, kind, very kind, and innocent. Unlike other people in this society, you almost have a pure heart and are not affected by this materialistic desire at all. Social pollution, many times when I see you, I feel like I am seeing a white lotus, holy, beautiful, and pitiful." Fang Zhiqiang said slowly.

Speaking of this, Fang Zhiqiang took another puff of cigarette.

"I actually like being friends with you, and I also like the feeling of being with you. When I am with you, I don’t need to think too much in my mind, and I don’t need to have too much burden. Because you are so pure that it makes people feel sad. You never have any scheming, not even a little bit of scheming. You are like a clear spring. No matter which angle you look at, you can see it all at a glance, without a trace of impurities. With you, It makes people feel like they have escaped from the turmoil of this society and stepped into the simple and innocent years, carefree and simple happiness. So the days when I was friends with you were the happiest days for me, although I My attitude towards you is not that good, but that is my character. I am not a person who likes to express my inner thoughts in words. I like you quite a lot. Really, I regard you as a friend. Best of all. friend."

"When you suddenly told me that you liked me and wanted to be with me, I panicked and was confused. I suddenly realized that I didn’t know what to do. After getting along with you, once some things involve love, many innocent things can no longer be innocent, and some things will no longer be pure.not going. You asked me if I like you or not. I can't lie to you, and I can't lie to myself. I have thought about this question seriously. The answer is yes, yes. For a woman like you, I don't think anyone can. It's bullshit to say that I don't like you and that I'm not attracted to you. I'm attracted to you, and it's even bigger and deeper. But I also know very well in my heart that the two of us are not suitable, really not suitable. I told you that story about how it is better to forget each other than to stay together. That is because of our huge differences in identity and background, differences in living environment, and differences in values ​​and outlook on life. You may not feel anything when you are fooling around together, but if you really want to be together, that means getting along day and night, that is a lifelong matter, and many things will show up. I am a few years older than you, and I may have more experience than you, and I am more worldly, and I know more about some things in this world than you do. I know very well that if the two of us are together, it will definitely not bring happiness, but pain and tragedy. Judging from your parents’ subsequent objections and actions, you should be able to roughly understand. I'm not kidding. This is really the case. Some things are destined from the day they are born. One will go left and the other will go right. Even if the earth is round, it is also an ellipse. No matter how you go, there will be no difference. The day we met. "

"I also said that you are a holy white lotus. I like you, appreciate you, and even admire you and respect you, but I dare not go forward and pick you. Just because you are too holy and cannot be offended in my heart. In my heart, you should stand far away in the center of the pond, standing there quietly. I can sit on the edge of the pond every day and be stunned. I look at you, look at you giggling, look at you in a daze, even to the point where I will dream about you, but I will never go up and take you off, because once you take it off, you will no longer be my dream, you It is no longer your pure white lotus that everyone in the world is filthy about, because I am afraid that I will dirty you. do you understand? In my heart, you are like a pure and kind-hearted fairy, exuding a light that I can't help myself from. But I can only admire you, because you are just a dream of mine, and you do not belong to this world. At least that's what I think in my heart. ”

“I don’t know if you can understand the meaning of what I said that I can’t quite understand, but this is the deepest thought in my heart. I am like a bird. The toad jumps in the mud pond all day long, and you are the white swan that suddenly flies over my head. I admire you, but I can only look at you. Just like you and me now, I like you, but I can only like you from a distance. I dare not get close to you, not only because of the obstruction of your family, but also because of the huge difference in life background. The most insurmountable thing is my heart. I don’t have the courage to get close to you. Whether it’s inferiority complex or weakness, in short, I can’t untie the knot in my heart and get close to you. Your purity makes me see my own turbidity. I can’t stretch out the hand that is stretched out to you.hand. "

"This is the reason why I rejected you and avoided you. From the moment you said you liked me and wanted to be with me, all I thought about was hiding. I don't want to hurt you, I really don't want to, although I am also in pain, at least I have been in pain. "Fang Zhiqiang threw the cigarette butt on the ground, stamped it out, and sighed.