The two slowly walked to the barbecue stall and sat down. Fang Zhiqiang took the order and ordered a lot of food, and then asked the boss to serve a few bottles of beer. The two sat at the table and waited.

Fang Zhiqiang took out the cigarette case and lit a cigarette himself, then took out a cigarette and handed it to Huang Wanting.

Huang Wanting shook her head and said, "No, I smoke just for fun. It won't be good if I smoke often."

Fang Zhiqiang didn't force himself and took the cigarette back. Inside the box.

"It goes by so fast. Tomorrow is New Year's Day, and in one month it will be Chinese New Year. This year is just over." Fang Zhiqiang couldn't help but sigh while smoking.

"It's okay, I'm numb. I've been here for many years. Whether it's the New Year or the holidays, it seems to be the same to me, there is no difference." Huang Wanting said calmly.

“You haven’t been back for so many years?” Fang Zhiqiang was a little surprised.

　“I went back once, and spent a year there, and then I never went back again. It’s not easy to go back to celebrate the New Year. You have to start grabbing a ticket long in advance, and it’s not easy to get it. Even if you get it, It was also crowded along the way, and our home was far away. From here to my home, we had to change trains constantly, and it would take us two days to get home. It was too tiring and expensive. The most important thing is that it is not easy to get home. Comfortable." Huang Wanting shook her head.

When Huang Wanting said this, Fang Zhiqiang was also a little surprised.

"You think it's weird, don't you? If you think it's weird, it just means that your place is a little more civilized than ours. It may also be because you are a man. You don't think so. Our place , the idea of ​​​​preferring sons over daughters is very serious. For people there, sooner or later, a daughter will be someone else’s family, a tool for other people’s family to carry on the family line, a loser, raised for others, and a loss-making business. The son is the member of his family and carries on the family line, so the son is the most important. Our family is very poor, even in our place, our family is relatively poor, because my father is in poor health and has been sick all the time. I have been taking medicine, but I can't do heavy work. My parents gave birth to me for the first time. They wanted to have a son, so they gave birth to another one, but it turned out to be a daughter. I knew that the family's conditions were poor and I couldn't support them, so I didn't want it, and because It was a daughter, so they were thrown out, and then they gave birth to another one. The third one finally gave birth to a son, and that was the end. Growing up, my brother was given all the food, clothing and clothing at home first, and my brother didn’t want any more. It’s my turn to be the one who can’t eat. Of course, I’m not saying that my parents are wrong. In short, in our village, this is basically the case. Everyone is like this, and it becomes a habit. No one will think it’s wrong. There's nothing wrong." Huang Wanting said with a smile. Even when she said these things, she was smiling, and there was not much sadness or resentment in her tone.

　“YouIs this the case now when you go back? "

"It's much better now, because I have made money, and this family is now supported by me alone. Of course, they have to treat me well. My younger brother went to high school on purpose. I sent back the money for high school. I also sent back the money for my dad’s medicine after I went to work. Then, my younger brother went home before finishing high school. I didn't do anything and just idle around at home all day. Then my mother forced me to give money and bought my brother a tractor. I could make some money by pulling things for others in the village. Although a tractor is not expensive, it is also expensive. It’s not cheap, and my salary is not very high. I saved up money for two years for a second-hand tractor. After that, I started singing in nightclubs and my income was a little higher. However, my family had to build a new house because I was preparing to marry my brother a wife. My mother asked me for money again. In three years, the money I earned in the past three years was I got a lot of points and sent them all back to build a new house. At the beginning of this year, my family's house was built. When the house was moved, my mother called me and asked me to go back and take a look. I didn't go back. In the middle of the year, my mother called me again to go on a blind date with my brother. She fell in love with a girl who was going to get married. She wanted gift money and was preparing for the wedding. After hearing this, I almost despaired. Finally, I told her Mom said, don’t always find one reason or another to ask me for money. From now on, in addition to the money I earn to support my own basic life, I will call you every month. ”

Hearing this, Fang Zhiqiang was a little speechless, and more surprised. He felt that Huang Wanting’s parents had gone too far, but after all, they were their parents, and it was not easy for him to comment. Just asked: “What did your mother say? "

"My mother said yes, she is very happy, that's it. "Huang Wanting spread her hands and said, very free and easy. She smiled when she said this, as if she was telling a joke.

Hearing this, Fang Zhiqiang also fell silent. , he always knew that Huang Wanting was burdened with the burden of the family, but he didn't expect the burden to be so heavy and like this.

At this time, the boss served a barbecue with several large pots.

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Fang Zhiqiang opened the beer and poured wine for himself and Huang Wanting.

“However, I may have to go back before the Chinese New Year this year. " Huang Wanting said.

"Before the Chinese New Year? "Fang Zhiqiang is a little strange. If he wants to celebrate the New Year, he will go back to celebrate the New Year. How can he go back before the Chinese New Year.

"Yes, before the Chinese New Year. My brother got married before the Chinese New Year. I was thinking about whether to go back. "

"You should go back, my brother's marriage is such a big deal. "Fang Zhiqiang persuaded.

"I know, I should go back, but I have to wait until I get this month's salary before I can take leave to go back. Otherwise, what will happen to him when I go back?Doesn’t it make sense to us? "Huang Wanting said lightly.

As Huang Wanting spoke, she drank wine and ate barbecue indifferently. There was so much sadness in this simple sentence that Fang Zhiqiang could hear it. .

“How about you borrow some money from me first? Anyway, they didn’t force me to pay back my money right away. Anyway, your brother’s marriage is a big event. "Fang Zhiqiang thought for a while and said.

"No, I have already paid enough for the wedding. This time I went back to give red envelopes. I am not stupid. After so many years, As a daughter and sister, I have done everything I should do, and I have also done what I should not do. Whether it is filial piety or righteousness, I think I have done everything in place. Now the house at home has been built, I bought his car for him, and he has a wife. From now on... from now on, I will start to only care about myself. This trip home is the last time. "Huang Wanting shook her head and said.